1. 8:24am Friday Aug. 22, 2014
I think I wonder too much. There’s just so many things that can happen in
one life its inevitable for me not to be curious about it all.
I wonder
About the future
Job I’ll have
Educational accomplishments
The number of kids I’ll raise
Location I’ll reside in
A husband and how he’ll be
Whether or not my family will stay connected
If I’ll like it in the future.
About the past
Online schooling
Self-harm
Self-esteem
Bulimia
Parents’ divorce
Moving homes so often
Medications
Suicide ideation
Hospitalization.

2. About myself
The drugs
Disorders
Decisions
Likes/dislikes
Appearance
Flaws
Deprivation of experience
Dreams I dream
People I associate with
Social status
Problems
Why me?
But most of all
I wonder about
The other side of life –
Dying –
Because how
Incredible
Would it be
To not wonder anymore.
-t.j.t.