1. THE GREEN DOOR
ISSUE 8
ANTHONY WEIR
TATJANA DEBELJACKI
DIMITRIS LYACOS / SYLVIE PROIDL
ANTHANASE VANTCHEV de THRACY
MARY ANGELA DOUGLAS
GEORGE MOORE
MICHAEL H. BROWNSTEIN

2. ANTHONY WEIR
Anthony Weir (born 1941) is a hermit-misanthrope who was
almost never employed. He is a painter who does not exhibit or
sell, and a poet who avoids publication. He has, however three
websites, one of which is literary (www.beyond-the-pale.co.uk),
another which is a comprehensive and richly-illustrated field
guide to Megalithic Ireland (www.irishmegaliths.org.uk), and a
third which is a study of grotesque and ‘licentious’ sculptures on
Romanesque and later medieval churches. He lives in county
Down, Ireland
RUMInations
Translations of and Glosses on Verses by
Mawlana Jalal ad-Din Muhammad Rumi
WHATS & WHATEVERS
What was said to the rose to make it unbud
was said to me here in my heart.
What was told to the cypress to make it grow strong
and straight as a pencil,
what was whispered to jasmine to give it its scent,
whatever made
sugarcane sweet, whatever
blessed the Turkoman people of Chigil
with beauty and elegance,
whatever permits the petal of pomegranate to blush
like a human
has entered me now.

3. I blush. That which adds beauty to language
is passing through me.
Great doors open. I fill up with gratitude,
suck sugarcane,
ever in love with the One who bestows
these whats and whatevers to all!
The Lovers
will drink wine night and day,
will drink until they can wash away
the veils of intellect and
shame and modesty.
With this Love,
body, mind, heart and soul and pain
do not exist. If your Love is unconditional like this
you cannot be separate again.
THIS WORLD WHICH IS MADE OF OUR LOVE FOR THE
EMPTINESS
Praise to the void that cancels existence! Existence:
this place which is made from our love of the vacuous!
Emptiness comes,
existence goes.
Praise to that process!
For years I pulled my existence out of the emptiness.
Then with one massive effort,
I stopped that repetitiveness,
and was free from who I was, free from presentness, fear, hope,
desire (for hope is pale shades of desire).

4. The here-and-now mountain of seeming
is just husk blown off into emptiness.
These words I’m saying too many of start to lose meaning:
existence, emptiness, mountain, husk.
Words and what they try to say fly
out of the window, off with the wind.
Come, come, whoever you are -
wonderer, worshipper, wanderer, lover of leaving,
whatever you are.
This is no caravan of despair.
Come – even if you have failed
and dropped out dozens of times -
Come on, try again, come.
THE SPIRITUAL TOURISTS
who idly ask: How much is that?
…Oh, I’m just looking,
pick up a hundred items and put them down.
They are shadows without substance.
What is spent is Love
and two eyes wet with weeping.
But tourists walk into a souk,
and their whole lives
suddenly evaporate.
Where did you go? Nowhere.
What did you eat? Nothing much.

5. Even if you don’t know what you want,
buy something, to be part of the come and go.
Even start a vast, insane project like Noah did,
for it makes absolutely no difference
what people think of you. Just flow.
I died from minerality and turned vegetable
and from vegetableness I died and then turned animal.
I died from animality and became a man.
Then why fear disappearance by death?
Next time I die
I’ll sprout wings like those of angels;
then, after that, soaring higher than mere angels -
what you cannot imagine -
that’s what I’ll be.
Soul receives from soul the knowledge, not by book
and not from tongue, and not through art
If the knowledge comes out of silence of the mind, this is
the illumination of the heart.

6. I said: ‘You’re very harsh.’
‘But,’ He answered,
‘My harshness comes from goodness,
not from rancour, not from spite.
I strike down those who enter saying, “I…” -
for this is Love’s tabernacle, not a cocktail party.
Rub your eyes…behold the image of your heart!’
I AM AND AM NOT
I’m swimming
in the flood
which has yet to come
I’m shackled
in the prison
which has yet to be built
I am the checkmate
in a future game of chess
I’m drunk with your wine
which remains untasted
I’m slain on a battlefield
of long ago
I don’t
know the difference
between idea and reality

7. Like a shadow
I am
and am not.
O Giver of life, release me from Reason
that it might depart and flit
from vanity to vanity.
Break open my skull, pour in the wine of madness.
Let me be mad as You are; mad with You, mad with life.
Beyond the commonsense of the conventional
and respectable sanity
and the information-infection
a desert burns white-hot
where Your dervish-sun whirls in every particle of light -
O Lord, drag me there, let me roast in Perfection!
God has given us a dark wine
so strong that,
drinking it, we leave both worlds.
God has put into hashish a great power
to free the taker of the consciousness of self.
God has made sleep so
that it stops us thinking.
There are thousands of wines
that can overpower our minds.
Don’t think all ecstasies
are similar.

8. Every object, every being,
is a wine-jar of delight.
Be a connoisseur,
taste with caution:
any wine will make you drunk.
Judge like a king, and choose the best,
the ones unadulterated with fear of what folk say,
or some contingent “duty” or “necessity.”
Drink the wine that makes your soul float,
moves you
as a camel moves when it’s been untied,
and is just ambling about – loafing, if you like.
The Tent
Outside: the freezing desert night.
Another night inside gets warmer, illuminating me.
Though the earth be covered with impenetrable thorns
In here there is a green and gentle meadow.
When the continents are devastated -
cities, towns and everything between
scorched and blackened -
the only news is future full of grief -
while inside me there is no news at all.
This is our intimacy, my beloved friend*:
anywhere you put your foot,
feel me in the firmness under it.
How is it, soul-mate, that
I see your world and don’t see you ?
Listen to the whispers inside poems,
follow their intimate suggestions

9. and never leave their premises.
*His beloved mentor Shams-i-Tabrizi.
A Thief In The Night
Suddenly
and unexpectedly
the Guest arrived…
Hearts beat faster
“Who’s there?”
And Soul replied
“The Moon…”
He came into the house
as we lunatics
ran into the street
looking
for the moon.
Then
from inside the house
he cried out
“Here I am!”
and we
beyond earshot
ran around
calling him,
crying for him,
for the ecstatic nightingale
locked lamenting
in our garden
while we
mourning doves
muttered “Where,
where…?”

10. - as if at midnight
the ex-sleepers upright
in their beds
hearing a thief
break into the house
in the darkness
stumbled about
crying “A thief! A thief!”
but the burglar himself
mingles in the confusion
echoing their cries:
“…a thief!”
till all cries
become the same cry.
And He is with you [Qur'an 4:57]
with you
in your search.
When you seek Him,
look for Him
in your looking
closer to you
than yourself
- why run outside?
Melt like snow
into yourself.
Wash yourself
with yourself!
Sprouted by Love
tongues rise
from the soul
like stamens
But let the flower
teach you

11. to silence
your tongue.
(adapted from a translation by
Hakim Bey alias Peter Lamborn Wilson)
A New Rule
As a rule, drunks fall on each other,
quarrelling, violent, making a scene.
The Lover is even worse than the drunkard!
Let me tell you what Love is:
to descend into a Goldmine!
And what is the Gold you find ?
The Lover is King above all kings,
unafraid of death, disdaining a crown.
The holy man has a Pearl invisible beneath his rags,
so why should he go begging from door to door?
Last night the moon came along, drunk
and dropping clothes in the street.
“Get up,” I told my heart, “Give the soul a glass of wine.
The moment has come to join the nightingale in the garden,
to sip honey with the soul-parrot.”
I have fallen – my heart shattered -
where else but in your path ? And I
broke your bowl, my amazing mentor, because I was
out of my head.
Don’t let me be harmed, hold my hand!
A new rule, a new law has been born:
Break all the glasses and beat up the glassblower!
(based on a translation by
Kabir Helminski, in Love is a Stranger,
Threshold Books, 1993)

12. Who is it saying the words that my mouth says ?
All day I ponder,
at night, alone with the wine
and the music, the roses,
I wonder
What am I doing here ?
I’ve no idea! My heart is from
somewhere
else – I’m quite sure -
and I surely intend
to return there.
This drunkenness started
somewhere else, also,
and when I get back I’ll be
very sober. Meanwhile
I’m a bird in a cage made of
poems. I’ll break out!
Who is it in my ear, who is listening ?
Who is it typing the words that you can’t
pay attention to,
and sending them out on the internet ?
Whom do my eyes belong to ?
What’s the true nature of longing ?
If I could taste one drop of an answer
I’d crack open this cage,
this trap of bemusement.
I didn’t walk myself into it,
whoever pushed me in
will get me back
just a bit wiser.
But so what ?
This poetry: I never know
what I am going to say,
until I have said it.

13. And after I’ve typed it out
I stammer banalities,
catch myself on
and say nothing.
A Kind of Kiss
There is a kind of kiss that
our very existence lacks:
the absorption of spirit
through flesh into mind.
Seawater
induces the oyster to open,
and the lilies adore
the sheer wildness of wind.
At night, I leap out of bed
and throw wide the window and ask
the old moon to come and press its
young face against mine: breathe into
me, moon-face. So I close the thought-door
and open the kiss-window. Moons
(be they made of green cheese or of lead)
don’t like doors, only windows.
The quick route to wisdom
is to cut off your head.

14. Rumi in the 21st (late 14th) Century
If anyone unaccountably asks you
what is the sign of perfect sexual satisfaction
just sniff his armpit.
(Only a man would ask that question.)
If anyone wants to know what soul is,
or ‘God’s blessing‘, just
incline your head toward that anyone,
and feel one face with another.
Last night the Medium turned over and slept
his deep, noisy sleep. That was his message.
Tonight he turns,
tosses and turns. And I cough,
clear my throat,
and pronounce, farouchely:
“We’ll be together
till Absolute Entropy!”
He mumbles back thoughts that occurred to him
when he was out of his head.
He is a Master.
The Thinker is always displaying,
the Lover is always losing his way.
The Thinker backs off,
afraid of getting lost.
The whole point of Love
is to get lost.
And who is this ‘Lover’ I keep on about ?
He or she is a person who feels bad
when trees and dogs
and even lice are suffering.
And what is ‘Love’ ?
Is it Truth, ‘Allah, Desire-for-Perfection ?
None of them!

15. It is Harmony -
harmony with Entropy.
But aren’t we all in harmony
with Entropy -
especially when we think we are not ?

16. TATJANA DEBELJACKI
born 1967 in Užice. Writes poetry, short stories, stories and haiku.
Member of Association of Writers of Serbia -UKS since 2004 and
Haiku Society of Serbia- Deputy editor of Diogen.
http://diogen.weebly.com/redakcijaeditorial-board.html Editor of
the magazine “Poeta”, four books of poetry published:
Email/Websites/Blogs http://debeljacki.mojblog.rs/ &
http://twitter.com/debeljacki

17. If you were living just across and if I were a tree
In that yard,
I’d delight you with fruit,
I’ll be watered with your glimpse,
just look at me in ardor,
I’d bear the sweetest fruit for you.
* * *
I am looking in lacking it, but having in looking for.
Among the clouds,
but not being among them.
It is just my happiness going away
while I am sleeping and sleep furtherly
my choice is the dream.
Though I am present in all of your needs.

18. SOUVENIR LUCK
How many times have I degraded myself?
Kneeled, crawled, searching for this,
My souvenir luck has banged!
A little bit insecure, a little bit deceiving,
you can never tell how long it will last.
I give to you two cold stones,
My cold hands, my shy face.
Shout this from the glass housetops!
MISTAKES
We no longer remember the mistake,
our house started to crumble down,
add one spark more.

19. Do you want to be honored for your efforts and fire?
Did we feel anything at all?
Though we were born…
The dying inside seems the worst,
dying out slowly…
FULFIL YOUR WISHES
Fulfil your wishes, go on.
Let the most beautiful melody start,
Let the breath be so near.
Steal dreams from the pillow.
Be here, stir up imagination.
Like this romantic tonight.
Stay, take over me!
Carry me! Take my clothes off!
Let me run through your veins.
Take my clothes off tonight, take me to the dawn.
The walls of your own heart you can tear down
And just one name carve there.
You take one owner there and lock in forever.

20. Poisoned blood you cannot change,
Only that someone stays there.
And all happening then, is not simple anymore.
When it starts, the chaos turns out!
!
BARE FACE
I’ve been sick since the very start,
I don’t care up to the very end of the game.
They lost it.
What about the other man?
In the twentieth chapter in the eight line
He was betrayed by the bare face.
In the twenty-third chapter,
It was goodbye.
The same face under the hat,
Bare face.

21. UNREQUITED LOVE`
Forget what I’ve said.
It’s something nasty again.
Sharp word has freefalling.
We have been long on these tracks,
Huge steps, heavy memories,
Through endless weeds.
We defied the storms,
Searching for oneself.
Unsuccessful trying, my love,

22. Do not go to local colors.
Forget what I’ve told you,
Unrequited love…
AQUARIUS
Kilometers gained nothing – you are here.
Before I go to sleep thirty times I say your name – you are here.
You fall asleep quietly – you are here.
Through deserts of sound, reason - you are here,
Through unreal reality – you are here,
Through the music of drums – you are here.
I know that you know that – here it’s
Always you.

23. HIM
Profile. Face in the shadow, straight lines of forehead and nose,
Plump lips, scar on the neck behind the left ear.
No, it is not a scar. It is a shadow of the ear.
Can’t see the eyes, but hear voice distinctly. It’s him.
MOTHER
If your life was dying slowly,
In this rhythm mine was living fast.

24. It is the same:
I can see the day, I can see the great day,
I can see the glorious day,
My mother.
If something is tearing my soul apart,
though I put a lot of optimism into it,
believe me, mother.
You are special.
In your eye is my happiness,
Just because of you
I am persistent and positive.
Evil comes and goes.
We have met again and we chased,
And in circle again.
Sadness makes lips silent.
Don’t I have a right to love aloud?
I will write a long poem.

25. PITY DESTROYS GOOD PEOPLE
Maybe everything is possible?
What are the wrinkles, slowness and pain towards death for?
Many good people were destroyed by pity.
And some unrequited loves, and me with all of that truth.
Courage, come here!
Strength, there you are!
Touch, you are near!
Breath, I can hear you!
Just tell me a little bit faster, cease in the name of will.
Life, turn around to look once more…
Poetic soul is the only who can live when there is no any.
Only those who do it exactly know the world of literature.
It is a language of poetry!

26. LIVING OUT OF POEM
While it’s raining, and when there is happiness,
And while dreaming the green knight,
When the fear is deep suspicion,
Everybody puts own empty and little life
Into one poem.
Though, were I to live mine as one in the poem,
But I didn’t.

27. WEATHERVANE
On the solid ground
Fatal and dangerous
A word or two
Between four sides,
Mild wind in the north,
In the south blows southeaster wind,
and northwestern.
Then, from each side blows the wind,
And the point of adventure.
Bring back the weathervane.
* * *
I’ve got your titters,
And hardly visible pit on your chin,
And your harsh frowns sometimes clearing out.
Your ears which do not hear anything,
And your strength sometimes I can feel.
I like your lies, truths flying restless,
And your little poetess.
And I remember every scar and birthmark,

28. And fault thug, and one little finger
Which means to me,
And one relationship hidden that I wanted and didn’t want either,
And dark loneliness.
After you I enjoyed alone.
And not lonely are the messages, not alone are truths,
And not alone are neither you nor I.
There is always someone to bother us,
And we give way today for tomorrow.
We are going out from our lives we lived.
A HOUSE MADE OF GLASS
A house made of glass.
The last performance is given there,

29. Last role,
A role without a price.
Lovers, on your parting
Fly away, fly.
For long, for long restrain your silence.
In the dark of night, at least one star belongs to you.
PHANTOM IN THE NIGHT
Phantom in the opera initiated great interest
Inside deeper and deeper.
And surrounded by his admirers only one is real,
Hearing differently and he stays.
Face to face. Two gaze.
Shut up and kiss me!
When you walk away from every stage and you lose your
popularity,
Come back.
Be my cradle.

30. PICTURE
Promise me that you would never leave me,
Man in the picture.
Tomorrow your smile will make my day.
And you are not a dream, you are reality.
Living picture, dear to me, picture full of contents.

31. If tomorrow will conquer the day
What would I do the day after?
I’ll try to win in some other way,
giving a bad example,
being too much anxious,
but again victory appears as reconciliation.
As an omen to great victory,
There’s victory existing unclearly.
There are drawings, proof of victory.
Part without envy
Develops and makes crazy,
And is a rush for victory.
It is easy to think. To win is other thing.
It is easy to win, but thinking is the other thing.
To win, not to give up.
AT LEAST IN DATES
Do not repent, time will not stop,
Do not suffer, the sky will not cry.
Star, twinkle in the night and, what had happened, will remain
somewhere,
At least in dates.

32. REAL PEOPLE
People die only
In dusk or dawn,
There are no eternal graves.
I smell on sweet basil
Pleasantly and divine,
And I love up to freedom.
MEETING
How come that we couldn’t understand each other
In thousand and one pain,
Belgrade?
Tell him that I’ll be waiting,

33. On Branko’s bridge in my thirtieth.
Let it be Friday evening,
Tell him to bring his feelings with him.
* * *
With you one half of me is sleeping.
We were not meant to each other.
Forgive me if I occupy the space.
* * *
When I think, when I want,
And set of to do it
Though ill, without your aim
And every day is grater worry
You know the secret of water drop
Grain of love, grain of wheat
Meaning so much.
But, my garden withers.

34. DIMITRIS LYACOS / SYLVIE PROIDL
Dimitris Lyacos is one of the leading figures in new European
writing. His seminal trilogy Poena Damni (Z213: EXIT, Nyctivoe,
The First Death), originally written in Greek over the course of
eighteen years, has been translated into English, German,
Italian, Spanish, French and Portuguese and is widely performed
across Europe and the USA. The work has had an increasing
influence over the years, inspiring a wide range of
interdisciplinary projects ranging from drama to contemporary
dance, video and sculpture installations as well as opera and
contemporary music. Extracts, in the different versions of a work
in progress, have been published in, mostly English-speaking,
journals around the world and there is a growing bibliography
exploring the various facets of Lyacos’ complex work: The trilogy
boldly straddles and crosses perceived boundaries of literary form
– from the journal-like prose in Z213: EXIT, to the elliptical
monologues of the distinctly dramatic Nyctivoe, to the pared
down poetic idiom in The First Death, Poena Damni builds a
world beyond postmodern dystopia that engrosses the reader. For
more information visit: www.lyacos.net.
SYLVIE PROIDL
In the German-speaking world, the announcement of someone’s
death differs considerably from region to region. The thick black
margin of mourning that once adorned every obituary notice is
now provided on special order only. The very descriptive Swiss
term for such obituaries, namely “circular of suffering”, was a key
trigger behind Sylvie Proidl’s series “memento mori”, which
calligraphically deals with the transitory nature of life. The words
obituary notice, death, mourning and pain are repeatedly
inscribed in various languages on stuccolustro plates. The
narrow horizontal or narrow vertical formats are designed to
represent slices from the in- to the outside. The pastel hues and
the open structure convey the past and the subtle colors
underscore the transparency of bygone epochs. The paintings
were first exhibited in the poetry reading “Nyctivoe” by Dimitris
Lyacos, whose book focused on the issue of finiteness.
www.sylvie-proidl.com

36. Poena Damni
(Translated from the Greek by Shorsha Sullivan)
Z213: EXIT
Excerpts
Tell those who were waiting not to wait none of us will return.
The sky is leaving again, the newspapers dissolve in the corridor,
the same trees pass again darker before us, those who wrench
the doors looking for a place, who are coming in at the next stop.
The light outside cutting the evening to pieces, harsh evenings
that fall among strangers, the story shatters within you, pieces,
fading away in the ebb of this time, that melt one into the other
before you sleep. And the snail hurries to go back on its tracks, a
tale you remember unfinished, wrinkles that still hold a colour on
memory’s transient seed, birds that awake the dew on their wings
and you leave with them into the all-white frozen sky, but you
wake and are baked again. Not the fever, the remembrance of
sorrow exhausts you you don’t know why, before you are well
awake and the barren feeling comes back again to your hands,
the rest suddenly fades away at once, you are one recollection a
broken box emptying, after the tempest this calm, you search for
support, get up like an old man, feel cold, remember birds’ wings,
magistrates’ sticks decorated with feathers the bones of an angel,
sink again images and words monotonous prayer.
………………………………………………………………………..
With
cotton wool or toilet paper which crammed your mouth, soaks up
your saliva, you are scarcely able to breathe. But mainly you are
thirsty, this wakes you up and the glass beside you empty. Night
still but what time, you will get up to ask for some water, the
carriage deserted, farther back, drops on the window, you wet
your hand to wet your mouth, further still further back the
carriage deserted, and one more, shudder, like voices that swell,

37. a carriage of voices. They give you water. Their animals sleep at
the back, they ask you questions you sit among them. You drink
water again. Laughter, voices ask you would say something but
you feel dizzy. A piece of meat from hand to hand, you go and lie
down at the side, they give you food, a bottle from hand to hand,
wine, a circle further back singing, the others between the
animals sleep. Dark faces, voices fraying in bitter carnival, their
heads, changing animal heads, the lamb’s body ends in the head
of a man with eyes shut. They put someone, between two
windows and he raises his hands, tall and broad, they bind him
by the wrists to the bars, left right. Lamb’s head, they put on his
head the skin from its flayed head. They speak to him. He sings.
Slow, disjointed song. Dark the cross of the man as day breaks.
They dress him in a blue garment, beside you someone was
turning a torch on and off from joy emotion their eyes were wet.
The alien joy of children, your smile with them for a while, and
then as if someone had gagged you but you calm down again and
breathe freely. And they were showing the livid scars on their
faces, victories that had conquered the world, our faith, they were
saying and our body one body in Him, you could hear them
singing, it won’t be long until the day comes, the season will
change. Around you all red. And outside, along the view of the
river beating up to the windows, slower now the train in its bend,
and wherever they could, all together, a closing circle, the native
women trying to climb aboard.
Lorries pouring tons of mud mounting up. Smell of the coffee,
boiled in a pot, they gave me a cup, you answer their same words
with your hands, you don’t know how else. From the window the
river like sending out light from within, blinding you. Your eyelids
with all the weight. The line of the horizon. Blurs. A wave
spreading out of control with nowhere to cling to turning back
and cascading to the expanses of snow. The workmen of a gang
raising a dyke, and building. Bridges, one almost finished. To the
crest of the mountain out of control and shuddering upwards.
Wine again. Every so often they would fill up, once they washed
the eyes of the cross of the lamb that was looking around. They
were touching and they were singing. As if your hands were

38. pierced. And the nails not to rust from the blood, singing. And
something like: the crosses, the crosses ill-omened. With rhythms
that made you dizzy again, in the slow whirl of the light growing
stronger, in the carriage spinning round with you.
……………………………………………………………………….
The slow bells from the church which must be near me I stopped
for a while and waited and now they were chiming again. And
here where I sat, like stains below the slabs as if blooded. Who
was there ringing, guesses confused not made clear, who was
there ringing the bell waves going down the dome, the echo of an
ocean that licks on it and drips here. And the flashes through the
window from the one to the other like a searchlight turning
around seeking me out. Here, in a flooded pit full of bodies,
branches that cover and float leaves that float on faces unknown
funerary gifts on the side, phrases by him and the Writ mixed on
this page, and further down sea tombs and then something
between the frozen palms. Gestures of the walls that invite you.
A hole high up opposite, you can hold on to the shoots of the ivy
to climb up and see where exactly you are. You don’t care, the
tracks hold you the people they brought here, something of what
they lived, and the pain they felt like you and they came and sat
here together like the leaves that came in where from you don’t
know a pile that gathers in front of the saints, and them all
together, one by the other, side by side, opposite all together to
look at them kneel, a circle, that will hold them a while. But,
release, and what’s left, yellow mouths leaving again from those
arches which covered them and they dream still for a while of
courtyards where the souls find rest, a flower sequence of angels
awaiting them there. And then the illusion dries up and it is an
empty uninhabited house. The icons below the colour that
changes the same shape the same face painted again on all the
walls. And there in the corner the body demolished, like metal
plates sunken within it, until dark falls completely leaning out
from the last fading saint his face pressing lips tight.
…………………………………………………………………………………
Nobody is coming after me. Surely they have forgotten about me.
Nobody will ever come here to find me. He will never be able to
find me. Nobody ever. And when I fled they didn’t even realise.
They took no notice of me no one cared no one remembers. Now

39. they will remember neither when nor how. Not even I. Tracks
only, a hazy memory and those images when I look at what I have
written, tracks of footprints in the mud before it starts raining
again. Uncertain images of the road and thoughts mumbled
words, and if you read them without the names you won’t
understand, it could have been anywhere, and then I spoke with
no one and those who saw me no chance that they remember me.
Every so often a face seeming familiar, from another time,
someone looked at you, you recognised him, no, a part of another
on a stranger’s face. Or the rhythm of the steps that sound
behind you, the rhythm of your own steps, which occasionally
you think follow you, they stop when you stop, or for a moment
you think he is coming behind you, or you think that someone is
breathing behind the door and will now come in. And then
nothing, and then back again, and you suddenly turn your head
as if you had heard him. But no one. You are far away, no one
knows you, no one wants to find you, no one is looking for you.
And tomorrow you will be somewhere else still farther away, still
more difficult yet, even if they would send someone. They don’t
know the way and before they find out you have decamped
somewhere else. They know how to search but they don’t know
what way. And even if they set off from somewhere they will still
be quite far. And they will not be many. Perhaps just one. One is
like all of them together. Same eyes that search, same mind that
calculates the next move. Same legs that run same arms that
spread wide. Ears straining to listen, nostrils over their prey.
Always acted like that. Two eyes, two ears, two nostrils, two
arms, two legs. The symmetry of the machine that pursues you.
A net that thinks decides and moves ahead. The head a fishhook
the body a belt. All the same. Me too. One behind the other.
Forward back further back, to follow the road. And if you don’t
know you run ahead anyway, because someone is always coming
behind you. Sooner or later he comes. And sometimes there
comes a hand taking you by the shoulder, or a worm that climbs
up on your hand. It rolls on a pillow of saliva. Forward. And as it
rolls it is growing and wrapping around you. A flat tongue on its
saliva with two eyes that rise up to see you. Maybe not you, they
look for a comfortable place to start from. Like him that, that
night we were hungry, that had etched an open mouth on his
stomach. Likewise this stomach has a mouth, it is a mouth,
about to open. From there you go somewhere else, on the inner
road opening up, in the twists of the gut, there of course you are

40. unconscious by now, unconscious you take the road of return
and when you wake up they have brought you inside there again.
The First Death
Extracts
I
Sea of iron. Moon silent as pain in the depth of the mind.
A body swept here and there
on the rock like seaweed or a lifeless tentacle, fruit of a
womb ship-wrecked by the
winds, ensanguined and flesh-filled mire. The left arm cut
short, the right to the end of
the forearm, a rotted stick raving amid the water’s lungs.
Of the ravaged mouth there
remained only a wound which closed slowly. From the
eyes a blurred light. The eyes

41. without lids. The legs down to the ankles – no feet.
Spasms.
II
Judgment of the sea, shackles from broken sobs
beneath the dry bowl’s split eyelids
an unseen prey –
plunder from passions’ tombs, litanies to the senses
on the point of crumbling, inarticulate melodies, lava
from beheaded rivers
blades of the waves cut deeply into the screen;
development of an hour-glass, epidemic
unmixed visions of heroes leaning
into the drunken veins of the light
the tempest that winters on the marshes –
shedding its leaves the return
of a dismembered body in the spring.
III
Dead jaws biting on wintry streams
broken teeth where the victim’s tremor
has disinterred their roots before adoring the hook
around the imprints of the ecstasy and the desolation
among the hecatomb’s aged branches
they are spread like a net towards the pallid sky

42. which like a trembling kiss falls from your lips;
regiments of the dead whispering unceasingly
in a limitless graveyard, within you
too you can no longer speak, you are drowning
and the familiar pain touches
outlets in the untrodden body
now you can walk no longer –
you crawl, there where the darkness is deeper
more tender, carcass
of a disembowelled beast
you embrace a handful of bed-ridden bones
and drift into sleep.
IV
Keep moving among the remnants of the feasts
like the sheepskin which flutters on the improvised gallows
keep waking amid the fragments of the night
with the Nightmare’s bitter betrayal in your mouth
eyes burning like the sick man’s bed
aware that all men have drowned within you
and just as the umbilical cord stretches
- and you feel the heavenly hand which now
draws you with all its might –
keep wondering without drawing breath

43. when will you reach the end
a bereft body, a crippled embrace
when will the hangman put you down
a limping soul
an old woman despoiled by the quest
uprooted by weeping
when will you give up the ghost in
the vomit of your misery
(and you ascend into flowers
of the tree where you were hanged)

45. Πες σε κεινους που περιμεναν να μην περιμενουν δε θα γυρισει
κανεις απο μας. Ο ουρανος φευγει ξανα, οι εφημεριδες λιωνουν στο
διαδρομο, τα ιδια δεντρα ξαναπερνουν μπροστα μας πιο σκοτεινα,
αυτοι που σερνουν τις πορτες ψαχνοντας θεση, που μπαινουν στον
αλλο σταθμο. Το φως απ΄εξω που κοβει το βραδυ κομματια, σκληρα
βραδυα που πεφτουν στους ξενους αναμεσα, η διηγηση μεσα σου
σπαει, κομματια, που σβηνουν στην αμπωτη τουτου του χρονου, που
λιωνουν το ενα στο αλλο πριν κοιμηθεις. Και το σαλιγκαρι βιαζεται
να ερθει πισω στα ιχνη του, ενα παραμυθι που θυμασαι ατελειωτο,
ρυτιδες που ακομη κρατουν ενα χρωμα στην προσκαιρη φυτρα της
μνημης, πουλια που ξυπνουν η δροσια στις φτερουγες τους και
φευγεις μαζι τους στον κατασπρο παγωμενο ουρανο, ομως παλι
ξυπνας και ψηνεσαι παλι. Οχι ο πυρετος, σε εξαντλει της θλιψης η
θυμηση δεν ξερεις γιατι, πριν ξυπνησεις καλα και γυρισει η στειρα
αισθηση στα χερια ξανα, σβηνουν τα αλλα με μιας, μια αναμνηση
εισαι ενα σπασμενο κιβωτιο που αδειαζει, μετα την καταιγιδα αυτη η
ησυχια, ζητας ενα στηριγμα, σα γερος να σηκωθεις, κρυωνεις,
θυμασαι φτερα των πουλιων, βακτηριες δικαστων στολισμενες φτερα
τα οστα ενος αγγελου, βουλιαζουν εικονες ξανα και λογια μονοτονη
προσευχη.

46. ANTHANASE VANTCHEV de THRACY
Athanase Vantchev de Thracy a écrit plus de quarante recueils
de poésies (en vers classiques et en vers libres) couvrant presque
tous les spectres de la prosodie.
Il publie une série de monographies et une thèse de doctorat sur
« La symbolique de la lumière dans la poésie de Paul Verlaine ».
Athanase rédige, en bulgare, une étude sur le grand seigneur
épicurien Pétrone surnommé Petronius Arbiter elegantiarum,
favori de Néron, auteur du Satiricon, et une maîtrise, en langue
russe, intitulée « Poétique et métaphysique dans l’œuvre de
Dostoïevski ».
Grand connaisseur de l’Antiquité, Athanase Vantchev de Thracy
consacre de nombreux articles à la poésie grecque et latine. Lors
de son séjour de deux ans en Tunisie, il publie successivement
trois ouvrages sur les deux cités puniques tunisiennes :
« Monastir-Ruspina – la face de la clarté », « El-Djem-Thysdrus – la
fiancée de l’azur », « Les mosaïques thysdriennes ». Pendant ses
séjours en Syrie, en Turquie, au Liban, en Arabie Saoudite, en
Jordanie, en Irak, en Egypte, au Maroc et en Mauritanie, il fait la
connaissance émerveillée de l’Islam, et passe de longues années à
étudier l’histoire sacrée de l’Orient. De cette période date sa
remarquable adaptation en français de l’ouvrage historique de
Moustapha Tlass « Zénobie, reine de Palmyre ».
Il consacre entièrement les deux années passées en Russie
(1993-1994) à l’étude de la poésie russe. Traducteur d’une
pléiade de poètes, Athanase Vantchev de Thracy est distingué par
de nombreux prix littéraires nationaux et internationaux, dont le
Grand Prix International de Poésie Solenzara et le Grand Prix
International de Poésie Pouchkine. Il est lauréat de l’Académie
française, membre de l’Académie européenne des Sciences, des
Arts et des Lettres, Docteur honoris causa de l’Université de
Veliko Tarnovo, Bulgarie, lauréat du Ministère des Affaires
étrangères français, membre du P.E.N Club français, membre de
la Société des Gens de Lettres de France, etc.

47. Il est décoré de la plus haute distinction de l’Etat bulgare, l’Ordre
Stara Planina. Il est membre de l’Académie brésilienne des Lettres
et membre de l’Académie bulgare. Ses poésies sont traduites en
plusieurs langues.
Marc Galan
EBLOUISSEMENT
Minuit déjà ! Minuit ! Et cette douceur de l’heure
Qui coule dans vos pupilles comme un poème d’Homère,
Comme l’âme d’Albinoni où l’Ange crépusculaire
A soudainement trempé son cœur et sa splendeur !
Dazzlement
Already midnight! Midnight! The sweet hour
that flows into your eyes like a Homeric ode,
like the fragile soul of Albinoni into which the Angel of Twilight
suddenly plunged his heart in all its sad sublimity!
translated from the French of Athanase Vantchev de Thracy by
Norton Hodges
31.12.05.
Notes:
Homer: the greatest Greek poet, born 900 BC, died 850 BC, best
known as the author of the Iliad and the Odyssey.
Tomaso Albinoni (1671–1751): Italian violinist and composer.
He wrote more than 50 operas, 40 cantatas, and instrumental
works of many kinds. His orchestral music was admired by Bach,
who used several of Albinoni’s themes in his own compositions.

48. Albinoni’s surviving works include violin concertos, trio sonatas,
and oboe concertos.
AUTRES POEMES :
15.
Tu ouvres toutes les fenêtres
Pour mieux entendre
La musique des champs,
Pour mieux voir
Le spectacle divin
Des peupliers penchés
Sur les eaux émerveillées
De l’étang.
Chaque tremblement de feuille
Est une note angélique,
Un voluptueux morceau de ciel.
English :
15.
You open all the windows
Better to hear

49. The music of the fields,
Better to see
the divine vision
Of poplars leant
Over the wonder-struck waters
Of the pond.
Each tremble of a leaf
Is an angelic note,
A voluptuous piece of heaven
Traduit en anglais par Norton Hodges
Атанас Ванчев де Траси
(Translation into Russian) :
15.
Ты все распахиваешь окна,
Чтоб слышать музыку полей,
Чтобы получше разглядеть
Пейзаж божественный,
Где ветви тополей
В немом восторге преклонились
Над водами заросшего пруда.

50. Листочка каждого движенье
То ангельская нота,
Кусочек неба вожделенный.
Атанас Ванчев де Траси
Вариант:
Ты окна отворяешь настежь,
Чтоб слышать музыку полей,
Чтоб видеть лучше и верней
Пейзаж, что создал Высший Мастер:
Склонились ветви тополей
На восхитительные воды
Пруда…
Там шелест каждого листа
Звучит, как ангельская нота.
Проглянет небо неспроста, -
Его ведь вожделеет кто-то…
Traduit du français russe par le poète moscovite Victor Martynov

51. NUIT PROFONDE DE L’ETE
« Célébrant cette divine et sainte fête de la Mère de Dieu, venez
fidèles, battons des mains,
glorifiant le Dieu qu’elle a conçu.
Très sainte chambre nuptiale du Verbe divin, cause de notre
commune divinisation, réjouis
toi, ô Vierge immaculée, gloire des Prophète qui t’ont célébrée,
ornement des Apôtres,
réjouis-toi »
Ode VI chantée le samedi de l’Acathiste
Nuit profonde de l’été, tu descends dans nos âmes fascinées
Avec la grâce d’un pétale de pêcher porté par les baisers
parfumés
D’une tendre brise amoureuse. Tu touches les cimes des cyprès
Et ils s’habillent de pourpre et d’ombres, plus dignes et plus
élégants
Que les empereurs porphyrogénètes de Byzance !
Tu viens comme l’Archange Gabriel,
En ample robe mauve ornée de mille broderies précieuses,
Tes longs cheveux rayonnants
Flottant autour des humbles pétunias du jardin,
Le regard innocent, vierge de tout désir
Et l’odeur du ciel infini dans tes prunelles étoilées.
Ô Nuit, ta voix soyeuse remet sur nos cœurs palpitants
Des doux rosaires de mots translucides

52. Et la silencieuse musique de mille rêves remplis de grâce
merveilleuse !
Tu touches nos visages purs et la clarté d’une pudeur inconnue
Soudainement envahit nos mouvements élégiaques.
Et nous nous évanouissons lentement
Dans l’eau tranquille d’une tendresse inattendue.
Tu respires et sur ta lèvre inférieure tremble l’éternité !
Tu souris, ô Nuit, et fais courir une fraîcheur transparente
Au coeur de chaque chose, dans le sang de chaque être vivant !
Toute proche, la mer nocturne
Embrasse les paroles des hommes sur les lèvres !
Petites vagues faites de courbes lumineuses, d’élans et de repos,
D’hésitations enfantines et de pauses élégantes.
Ô Nuit qui fais remonter les hauts souvenirs vers nos cœurs
taciturnes
Comme des frêles petits bateaux chargés de trésors inouïs !
Ô libre Nuit, nous te rendons grâce, en tremblant de
reconnaissance,
De cet instant indicible où la fragile, la silencieuse perfection
Tâche d’élever nos pensées jusqu’à l’étreinte frissonnantes
Des mystères !

53. Fais nous vivre, ô Nuit immortelle, dans les jardins
Où fleurissent les pages d’un poème à la clarté moirée,
Fais-nous boire la lumière de ses lettres pleines d’âme
Et caresser leurs lignes en forme de fleuve de cuivre !
Ô Nuit, protège-nous de l’effeuillement de nos propres visages !
Saint-Raphaël, le 15 août 2004, fête de l’Assomption de la Vierge.
Glose :
Acathiste (n.m.) : hymne à la Mère de Dieu que les fidèles, le
soliste et le chur (la petite
chorale) chantent debout par respect pour les mystères qu’elle
médite. Le mot hymne dans la
langue de l’Eglise est du féminin. Poème acrostiche alphabétique,
chacune des 24 strophes
commençant par l’une des lettres de l’alphabet grec. On attribue
ce texte à Romanos le
Mélode (mort en 560).
Porphyrogénète (adj.) : du grec porphurogenêtos, « né dans la
pourpre ». Se disait des
enfants des empereurs de Byzance nés pendant le règne de leur
père. Exemple : Constantin
VII Porphyrogénète.
Pétunia (n.m.) : de pétun, « tabac ». Plante dicotylédone
(solanacées) herbacée, ornementale,
à fleurs violettes, blanches, roses ou panachées.
Moiré, e (adj.) : de moire, terme provenant de l’anglais mohair,
« mohair », étoffe en poile
de chèvre. Qui a reçu l’apprêt, qui présente l’aspect de la moire.
Synonymes : chatoyant,
ondé. Moirure (n.f.) : caractère, aspect d’une étoffe moirée.
Moirer (verbe) : rendre
chatoyant. Moirage (n.m.) : opération par laquelle on donne
l’apprêt de la moire à une étoffe.

54. MARY ANGELA DOUGLAS
Eschewing all commercial contacts and considerations, and thus
not widely known outside her circle of admires, Mary Angela
Douglas is one of the most authentic, and prolific, lyrical voices of
our time. The editors are then more than delighted that she has
given us these poems to publish. Hopefully she will receive the
credit and recognition which her work fully merits.
Listening for the beginning of snows, white flowers, celesta
for the poet Elinor Wylie (1885-1928)
listening for the beginning of snows, white flowers, celesta-
I bowed my head far down
into the very velvet of God;
putting the jeweled sword back in the cupboard, carefully-
by the last of the fairytale cheese-
the plum-starred jam.
who knows what music held
for those who appear no longer;
wind the music box anyway
and don’t despair,
your heart like a cloud
still does not drift
and it is a wonder
just to breathe the air
that later, snow will inhabit-
22 december 2011

55. Speaking English
courting the fair lost wonder of the skies
the ghosts of English poets stood out in the rain
wondering what happened
to the world edged all around in gold;
edged all around in gold,
who bartered what for what
and keyed it all down
so softly, by degrees, in the pearl smudged day
we hardly noticed when the Word
left glistening, alone
as though it had never been
spoken into green.
let the fairy ferns bend down their fronds through
these wrecked dells, now out-of-the-way
and the musk roses sigh in the Borderlands-
that even light dwindles, dividing itself
into itself and praising nothing.
O eglantine! O mild musk roses blowing…
brief Tyrian clouds above the foaming cliffs
were mine, but they swept by my childhood’s aching
that denied-not real enough, was said.
leaving me nothing more to say at school but
to hobble on, ever-after with the
clipped birds from my hocked fairytales
small scissors sawed part-through

56. I’ll never be
real without them-
who wants to be baked inside a very tasty gingerbread by the
witchy experts
stealing the names that color the soul – this has always been,
oh my little little child
pretending to grow wiser you’ll escape
even further into the woods of gold and silver embossing-
pure silence gathers stars.
and treasured there, you’re a better country without bitterness…
this is the part of the story where you disappear, like a pearl
in the pearl of mist or cloud still owned by God
and safe from lies. It shall be so.
till the day you can come back
with all the light-rescinded years, the hollowed out rinds of suns
and snows, the wayward sparrows glinting in the shadows not in
vogue
oh God what’s singing for
or speaking-
if it isn’t this:
to brand on the wasted heart incessant amazement-
to be leased by God-
you’ll wake to wonder, too, so all- at-once to see
each drowsing castle in familiar mists of rose :

57. ever after, having been spoken-
the small house in the clearing
brimmed with Christmas lights,
the bright fields sown
of the full-throated music you did not disown-
11-12 december 2011
Walking on the Jewels of Your Silence
walking on the jewels of your silence
I saw the winter sky come down
enfolding a long-ago radiance.
a child turns the page
and traces the angels.
you scattered amethyst on the snow
turning my pockets overnight
into Christmas or mother-of-pearl.
brightness, you called it:
will it fly away?
once I was living on the fair isle
where I learned to say:
those must be angels coming down
with diamonds in their hands…
there are deeper ripples in the air
where music was before.
my dreams are banked so high
where could I turn to start again
the porcelain beginning of the measure?

58. the first rung in the sidewalk.
my dreams are banked so high.
my dream is leaving this way
just as the glaze begins to fall apart
on a pale green piano piece
not yet memorized-
november 28-30 2011
Dress Code
weaving the fabric made of clouds
and of the retreating armies-
I whisper to myself, again-
maybe it’s not too late
for the new-spun colours in my head-
the cherry velvet ravels swept aside;
a silver tack of wondering again,
never setting sail-
who lost the Age of Rose?
I count the last gold
in the corners
and count again, sweet
polished cotton dresses with no seams:
the sprigged details
for the diffident day
on a simple field of honour.
not knowing the pearl of minutiae
as You do, oh God-

59. I’m turning this inside out to find You-
and twining the dreamy-treadled thread
that keeps on breaking yet still shines
in tiny roseate crystals stitched on snows.
piano music’s sateen on the wind
and seems to disappear, pure lemon verbena.
but sparkles do not dwindle, lily-of-the-valley mine
though I’m so small and slide off of the bench
never reaching the pedals by the chiffoniere
where it’s always almost spring;
you won’t disturb
the shawl of dappled roses on the doll crib-
the childhood fortitude so pear wept
twig by twig, the same;
remember me, and, if not-
the pale green earrings-
my geranium gown…
I turn the diamond spackled key
of an antique conversation:
who lost the pockets of the
children filled, the little sashes made of
white violet velvet
isles?
6-8 november 2011

60. Not Wanting the Story to End
to my mother, Mary Young-Douglas and my grandmother, Lucy
White Young
Ashputtel has the loveliest dress
made all of stars or tiny spangles
on a peach background;
against an aqua cloud
she leans, or aquamarine-
in my first Storybook.
how can she stop herself from dreaming
in tulle that is aglow with sudden
marigolds?
she’s folding a sapphire fan just
like a cake, not wasting anything
humming “La Traviata”.
or in a tarlatan whispering
“violets, like the twilight hour”
that she believes in-
while I go on just reading
lilies in a mist.
and everything she says
is only waiting to be:
A diamond or a
peridot embroidered on the air
in the distance between dream and dream.
it’s God knows best
when she’s blubbering over the parsnips
snipped too fine-
or snapping the clothespins off the
apricot crochet of clouds
or carnation petticoats-

61. how her shadow’s pale pink silk
is dyed to match
His favorite orchids, orchards, sighs-
oh how could it be
any other way than this
when she glides out in the froth of
plinking moonlight unaccountable
happiness
that I have stored inside
to keep from crying
when the stitching’s wrong-
the seed-pearls scattered-
and daybreak errands wounding
on a crooked-not a crystal,
stair-
she says, “God will take care of you”
and she should know.
before your melting vision soon
how gently she will step into the snows as into blue-belled
meadows
holding on
in her glimmering house shoes;
decorative and true-
and spilling stardust as she goes
more beautiful than the mirroring sea
in my jump rope rhymes of green taffeta.
let the jeweled clock weep
the lucent tatters back-
the yellow gold pumpkin
crank itself up the hill
beside the little house with the rick-rack curtains and
the apple tree
let the raggedy rosebush
in the Mama’s garden
burst into everlasting rubies
Raphael’s cherubs gather still…

62. Weeping Coins of Chocolate in the Snow
weeping coins of chocolate in the snow
the sugar-plum tree still shimmers
with its long-ago.
I’ve castled all my castled
on the checkerboard afternoon
and all the pieces are
pure crystal.
I can’t begin to say how
much I’ve missed
the flurries of hard candies
with raspberry centers-
the lemon sun.
open the window
so the pink light
on the floor
will grow into a rose
we will not trample.
15 december 2011

63. GEORGE MOORE
I’ve published poetry in The Atlantic, Poetry, North American
Review, Colorado Review, and internationally now, in Blast,
Orbis, Dublin Quarterly, Antigonish Review, and elsewhere. My
sixth collection, Children’s Drawings of the Universe, will be out
next year with Salmon Poetry Ltd. (Ireland). In the last two years,
I have been nominated for two Pushcart Prizes, two Best of the
Web awards, two Best of the Net, The Rhysling Poetry Award, and
was a semi-finalist for the Wolfson Poetry Prize. My collections
have been finalists for The National Poetry Series, The
Brittingham Poetry Award, The Anhinga Poetry Prize, and The
Richard Snyder Memorial Prize. Much of my work grows out of
time I spend in Europe and Asia, and in the last few years I’ve
done artist residencies in Spain, Portugal, Iceland and Greece. I
have also done a number of collaborative projects now with
painters and textile artists, and have had exhibitions
in most of these countries. I also have a website which lists
recent activities and publications:
http://spot.colorado.edu/~mooreg/Site/About.html.
I teach with the University of Colorado, Boulder.
The Dogs of Calcutte
do not live long, no longer than the children
or the adult males in their thirties who lie down on the streets,
no longer than the woman who give birth to the world
only to leave it with a breath as singular as a blessing,
no longer than cats or rats, as they are all of one population,
but they do not live as long as the young man traveling,

64. from across airconditioned deserts, through cresting waves
on even keels, through the air in the silent turbo darkness,
for no good reason on earth is his life longer than theirs.
My Moment in History
After I’m born, two days later,
Adolf Eichmann arrives in Argentina.
He’s driven to the palace of his friend,
El Dictador,
for tea and crumpets
for they are so terrible English.
They talk of a general amnesty.
Fifty years later, in Syria,
Alois Brunner drinks sweet Arabian tea
and swims at seaside in his private pool.
But the Mossad want to know
why he does not swim with the fishes.
This is my personal history,
this parallel universe that exists only within me,

65. the terrible vantage point of now
in a nameless time.
In Palagrugell, the chateau
of Aribert Heim is known by its nymphs
on the gates that do not allow entrance.
Luise Danz, too ill to have her day,
ten years later goes on living,
but the girl she stomped to death in Malchow camp
goes on living only in memory.
And I’m home writing checks to Amnesty International,
my birthday a new celebration of the dead.
End Game
When the fire dies out, the coldness creeps in like a line through
time from a black hole, and the right way to go, considering the
way things have gone, would be to dive, warp, twist into a long
stretched-out wholeness of yourself, over history. But whose
history? What is this final day if not a daze, the final finial or
filleted, or what has the word word to do with the vacuum?
When the last star collapses it runs like this. Photon decay,
which takes so long, so many cosmological eras that we can only
talk of it in passing, lights nothing, the white dwarfs won’t warm
a room. The galaxy of stars like these are miniature pinpricks in

66. the ancient fabric, and then are gone. We talk of cosmological
decades as if we knew. Against all our efforts to stop by the road
and smell the sweet decay, the process proceeds; we weep for the
positrons and pions, and they drift off into damn gamma
radiation, as if that were an end. But energy knows better, fails
to falter until there is far less of it than we can see. The couple
who most make apocalypse complete are the electron and its
lover, who meeting, annihilate. Now we have a vacuum. The star
so dwindles that it cannot compete, and falls into itself, stumbles
home drunk, drives its engine into a cosmic tree, that is not
growing, but rather mirrors the roots of nothingness, dark trails
in the quantum absence. And no matter what you’ve heard,
nothing begins again. The thermodynamics of haphazard gravity,
that warp without the benefit of perspective, comes back like the
serpent to bite its tail, and for awhile there is nothing to do but
wait. But at the last, in the final scene, we see the absolute
blessing of degeneracy, as the darkness talks to itself, complete
and unannoying, and the things left out on the beach for
tomorrow are washed at last into a sea of radiation.
Artifact
Wandering fields on the Alentejo
was a dolman propped on finger stones
which collapsed into a petal, sometime
long ago, fungus gray, spread out like
time does from the moment
of the unnamed in the grave.
What will the farmers be doing,
the cattle milling among the cork oak,

67. the pigs rutting the fields to dirt,
four thousand years after my name
will be silently fostered by some stone
in an abandoned field?
Here Near the Center of Things
The day ends when you stumble across it
wearing the same clothes you thought you’d thrown away
a decade before. Or was that simply a way of wishing
the next life? The day ends when the suddenness of things
disappears, when the walk heads itself home, when
the first light turns from red to yellow to white without
you knowing it, suspended in the medium of your own thoughts,
like a bug in amber, or in someone else’s drinking glass.
But this is where life really begins, the mesmeric, secret
transplant of self into self, grafting the best of you into
a future which stands so close you can smell almost it,

68. and then, with a light wind, the day really begins.
Reflections on the End of Time
An afternoon at rest
all natural things moving naturally up
and away, the geese lift off the lake
in a north Saskatchewan fire haze,
clearing the trees slowly, this
is our cosmology, aftermath
of the Big Bang, prelude
to a blackhole universe,
at time’s end, the fact a vacuum
fluctuation brings it all into being
out of hot magma, heat without thingness,
particle-less, only the assumption
of order, as the prophets surmised,
not to reincarnate but to cycle out
and back into the milk soup of pre-being,
the whirling mess of things
passing into other states or out of states
entirely, into the rich nothingness
after a beautiful, brief vibration of strings.

69. Translating Cavafy
What have you heard of the others
in their far off lands, places you would call
home, but for the distance love makes?
The incredible desert between you
and your Greek histories, those young images
of failed moments, or stalwartly survivals,
is a desert of sea, stretches of linen, a sun
that is relentless in its difference. Who
were you before the names were set
in foreign soil? The gods abandoned
only those who could not keep up.
Pulling you through by a thread of ink
is impossible, so much of the fabric runs
with those who have died then,
and the others, who continue to live.

70. Moose to Motorcycles
The body does not move
it emerges
at full speed
head first–which is always
the problem–
the body needs to follow
for the head leads
missing the thread of danger
in-between, even as the bike
careens within an inch
of her broad snout
as she angles up out across
the wet Park highway

71. frantic with a fear of engine
invasion noise
the two of us
smelling the Other as close
as kin, as evolutionary
link with the wilderness
with the city
with death in life
thinking I am nothing here
but an accident in
a parallel universe
and nothing really separates us
unless because wait
the word moose does
for the poem as departure

72. snags on the world
where we flew by life.
An Existential Treatise on Mistakes
Much has been missed.
The trees crowd in among
trees like fingerlings
of a kind of perpetuity.
Wind rustles
and sounds like a car approaching.
The children look up the road
waiting, that old dictionary
human expectation.
Today the call of traffic
replaces the aeolian harp.
No noise so pure
that it escapes our reason.

73. Burial at Sea
Seawind and shore
estranged, terra grit
penetrates the air, tide
pools go turbid, that
tang in the air,
beautiful corpses,
a dead seal on the sand.
Nostrils transgress
their nature to revile
and reverence. The sand
opens itself to a wave.
Nothing sudden stands
on ceremony. Gulls’
caw interpenetrates
the surf, the thought
cutting off words,
dunking them in the sea,
in the past, like love
lets regret outlast only
a single wave.

74. What we were then
falls to foam, comes up
& back like broken shells
rolled in the motions.
The coast like a hand
taking the pulse of night.
It has come on that fast.
The sea’s inlet is blood
now, the white caps
bandages, with strong
salt air, a healing salve.
The Old Man of Hoy
The sea stack
off Orkney Island
bent like an old man,
plume-haired in surf
to skirt his knees
is earth old, and
failing. Now base-
jumped and iron-

75. mongeried. The ferry
tilts in acquiescence
to slant of the galaxy,
autos slide side to side
and into your gut,
in the great belly
of the beast, metal
beneath slamdancing.
On the third deck
the gunnels rising
and falling though
three stories up
meet grey matter
of a watery world
like a wall of stone.
Sea and sky fuse
to gunmetal, and this
surface, a double-edged
Gaelic claymore
held above our heads,
is the Old Man’s
crumbling blade too.
And as my breath

76. is crushed to pulp
and stomach churns,
the earth echoes back
the voyage and our
brief achievements.

77. MICHAEL H. BROWNSTEIN
Michael H. Brownstein has been widely published throughout the
small and literary presses. His work has appeared in The Café
Review, American Letters and Commentary, Skidrow Penthouse,
Xavier Review, Hotel Amerika, After Hours, Free Lunch, Meridian
Anthology of Contemporary Poetry, The Pacific Review, Posse
Review, poetrysuperhighway.com and others. In addition, he has
eight poetry chapbooks including The Shooting Gallery (Samidat
Press, 1987), Poems from the Body Bag (Ommation Press, 1988),
A Period of Trees (Snark Press, 2004) and What Stone Is (Fractal
Edge Press, 2005).
THE MKT, WINTER HIKE
The first time I did the MKT trail
the weather mid-May in December,
the kind of day when summer
opens every window in the house
and lets everything good
about the world fill all of the rooms.
Winter a few blocks away
water slipped into water,
frogs called one another,
songbirds played from limb to limb
and small trees held to their leaves.

78. I only mowed my lawn three times
that summer, one man told another
and three women with behinds as big
as trucks could not stop the passage
of time. The world coming to its end
and everyone outside enjoying
the summer of December.
MY VISIT TO VIETNAM IN A DREAMSCAPE
The soft eaves of snow, leverage,
the feeling to do good, this mountain
the last stretch of the journey,
its snow exhaust gray and empty.
Cleanliness has little to do with any of this.
Bunched grass crumbles underfoot,
stale and dying, brown and useless.
Nor can cleanliness change a crowscape.
This path may be the last one for the sage
or it may be the beginning steps for the fool.
I cross country ski in this park.
The tracks I make remain where I make them.

79. ON RETURNING TO AMERICA
Morning came into America with a green haze,
jaundiced, vicious shadows from the sky.
It was early, I had jet lag, nothing could make me sleep,
rain swelled the stream behind the house,
the air turned yellow, violent, a cockroach
walked across the kitchen counter top,
and I waited inside of myself for myself. Everything
took longer. Everything would have to wait.
I put my head on the pillow on the couch
and knew the wait for daylight was forever.