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"I dedicate my family who loves me too, my friends who are very few, but live in my
heart and my psychologist who solved a puzzle in my sleeping neurons. I take this
opportunity to "green" the Tijuca Forest even more, for without it there would be the
dream book. Amen! Love! Peace! Happiness! "
Part 1 | Preface
Part 2 | First heart operation
Part 3 | Cancer My Wife
Part 4 | Depression and work
Part 5 | First stroke
Part 6 | According stroke and heart operation
Part 7 | Pacemaker
Part 8 | Tijuca Forest
Part 8 | Our lives
Part 9 | Photos
Part 10 | Letters and Poem
Unfortunately my Portuguese is very poor, compared to the great writers there are.
Summer grammar errors, verbal agreements, points which should not exist and other
serious things, I as a writer, should not commit. But the vast majority of people who
will see my story take shape, will opt for writing a blessed and capable of all life. So I
ask million excuses why I write now with the heart, and it is the pure and true feelings
take extraordinary ways.
I had a lifetime to do what I wanted to be an IT programmer or a large advertising or
even a journalist. But life has given me another alternative, tell a "living" part of my
magnificent history of struggle, defiance and desire.
But this fight, challenge and will is so big and so beautiful to see and believe, that
makes faith is my main event. A life that many say, that was my strength and my ability
to overcome challenges. I do not think it was healing all. It was salvation and my
healing poorly. Now I want to take this faith for you.
I had several problems, but all were overcome. But beginning to unravel my big and
bold evils, all had their key role. All were and are factors of extraordinary growth.
Let's start to title my big problems, so it's easier you understand and realize how serious
was certain moments of my life. Operated heart, my wife had cancer and died, my
grandmother died the day of my wife's cancer discovery, I went into depression, had
two strokes'S (Stroke) and operated the heart a second time and put a marker step.
Anyway, I think this is already good. Do not you think?
Life is so amazing! It was hard! But I won! I have problems? None. Absolutely, I am a
very normal guy. Do it! Conquer! Run ahead! That's what I always do and that's what
keeps me alive constantly. Sorry errors of PORTUGUESE again as it is complicated for
me to form a perfect word. Anyway, it's heart and much love to write to you.
"Writing is a need me." Clarice Lispector
I would not know what I would do if did not write. It is a giant complex of pure and true
words, I can not not leave them to declare the love I feel for them. Are noun, adjectives,
adverbs and other complex grammars, I do not know more, but make me strength to
write without knowing what goes on in the head but in the heart. The heart is so huge in
terms of great and complex words in the virtues of the soul meant. I am a lucky, a
project to be sensitive human words that make no sense, but in the end do. This is crazy
so great that I myself can not understand how I write without knowing how to write. I
strongly believe that the heart is the most natural and true way to write what I think and
desire. I am so full of attitude, full of conscience and full of courage. Why is the heart
that speaks louder than anything.
First heart operation
My name is Rodrigo Vieira, I'm 35 years old and work in a multinational in Rio de
Janeiro. I have a life story with some overruns and achievements. It took nearly 10 years
of struggle and overcoming regarding health and death.
It was a normal morning work. Always arrived early to meet targets and deliver my
work material always on time. It was very annoying with it because it was a virtue sign,
which always fulfill your goals. It was 6 am when my phone rang. Me and my girlfriend
Ana Paula, always work together and it was a good thing because we always had an
important role within the company. She told me she was with very low pressure, normal
thing for her, for he had a hypotensive pressure (below normal pressure). I found it very
strange her voice on the phone, but listened to what she had to say. His voice was
trembling and felt a sharp pain in the heart. One of two things, she was enfartando was a
tension or crisis in metro Rio de Janeiro. Unfortunately, here in Rio de Janeiro, from the
line two subway was an almost daily crisis.
He said he was going to the subway Carioca, who would catch and take her to the
medical center of the great company that worked. As usual, it was customary to drop
everything I was doing to help my girlfriend. You will always remember that dated, got
engaged and married, so do not judge me if at some point, err conjugations relationship.
It was very close to the working underground, and in five minutes there I was standing
in the crowd trying to see Ana Paula.
When I saw astonished and colorless, I was scared. I pushed everyone who was around
me and held her by the arms. I asked what she was feeling and she always told me the
same thing, a strong pain in my heart. I follow even the most secure building, where we
would have a preview of what was going on. I was walking by foot, and always
wondering what she was feeling, unfortunately people get frustrated and that's too bad.
We got to the building, I put the badge of her and asked for help for the first guard I
saw. Unfortunately there was no time, she was fainting. It's so weird you see a person
on your side, a loved one, losing strength and faint. Promptly everyone around me were
to help me and went quickly, she passed out, for the medical sector.
She left the doctor's care and went to the waiting room crying. I did not know what to
do and not what to feel. I called my mother and I called my mother. All were desperate
and waiting for a position. Some time later, the doctor came to me and asked me what
was going on, the drugs she took and other relevant things. And he had noticed, there
was nothing else. However, it was necessary to go to a doctor for a general check up. So
we went a cardiologist on the same day.
It what had happened and started doing the tests to determine what was happening. My
girlfriend had a habit of wanting me to do some tests to see if it was okay with me. I
totally unnecessary, but it was her life that was at risk. So I did the exams as well. We
were satisfied to a Botafogo clinic for the two-dimensional echocardiography with
Doppler color for her and for me. Anyway, do what? We set off for exams.
We did the tests of my wife and her problem was a pure momentary stress. When did
my exam, the doctor was an hour looking my heart and asked me waited. After an
outgoing call to my cardiologist, she told me that my exams were serious, in a state of
advanced severity and probably I should operate as quickly as possible. My ground
began to fall apart at that very moment the doctor said it was a normal operation and
stones rolled down the cliff with me.
It was a very painful back to the City Centre. It was something he did not expect so little
thought I should go through all that. Unfortunately I did not like the doctor who
attended me and others who did not please me. I remember I went to the health plan and
saw an unfamiliar name, but called and went to him. It was the Doctor Jazbik team. One
of the best surgeons of Rio de Janeiro.
I remember I was on the appointed day with my mom, find Dr. Carlos Jazbik, the
person who would operate me. It was totally quiet and friendly. I was handing in his
hands my life for him. Fortunately was a congenital aortic insufficiency, instead of
being tricuspid valve was bicuspid. We decided to operate as fast as possible and with
the inclusion of a mechanical valve. Surgery dated, marked exams and I was ready to go
change my small valve.
I've always loved the internet, because I thought of everything and always more. Of
course, bad things and good, but always filtering. I started looking for cases of serious
failure in patients with congenital aortic valve, similar operations and all you can find in
the digital world. I did biochemistry area of the college where he was studying, then did
not care to see dead people because'd seen in anatomical UERJ. I was wondering what I
would go and how was surgery. After great difficulty, I found an operation performed in
full, with cuts, chest bones, cardiopulmonary machine for blood and technical details I
needed to know and master. I know it was not a good thing, but I needed to know by
academic curiosity and life. Of my life!
I remember like it was today, did not sleep and did not have to. It was a lost night and
had to think about how it was my future hospital facility, medical or whatever. Had
insomnia since childhood, then think to know, it was better than not knowing, and
wander around. The day was marked, was the March 12, 2004, at 7 am. I remember it
was Luiz (Manoel) a very great friend of my family who took me to the hospital in
Barra da Tijuca. Just do not ask me the name of the hospital, because I do not remember
and I intend to forget it forever.
My girlfriend Ana Paula was already in the hospital and together with a good friend of
mine named Amanda. I know it now is 24 years or more. Are small friendships that
grow over time, in joys and sorrows. I was in the hospital, my mother, my father and my
dear grandmother Gina wistful. But forward you will know more of it, leave an hour I
keep alive the memory of their presence. All very tearful at the hospital, but had to keep
me going strong for everyone. It was my life and would not give up her ever. I said
goodbye and went to the operating room.
Laughs a lot, I talked with wonderful people, made my hair removal (shaving) with 8
different people and the time had come, went to the operation. Everything went very
well, because he was alive. Unfortunately we had some ups and downs in relation to
procedures, because I had an infection in points, went into depression and made the
worst test that a person could do, transesophageal echo, without anesthesia and in the
face and courage. But with great results, because there was the risk of bacterial
endocarditis. After 30 days in the hospital, I went home.
There were 4 months of much struggle, strong and agoniantes pain. But they soon
became in a brief reminder of what I had been through. Life must always be live to the
"If you stay too long staring into the abyss, the abyss will look for you." Nietzshe
I was much downtime looking at a bottomless pit with no way out, aimlessly with
nothing. But I reergui and climbed through the rocks and crevices. Now I'm on top
again, stirring up my strength to climb higher than we ever would rise. I'm looking at
the staircase that goes to heaven. A sky full of great opportunities and obstacles, but
will overcome all. Do you know why? For my heart is huge in the eyes of the people,
and growing by the minute and second. That to me is a win to try and achieve. The
victory you have got out of depression to happiness.
Cancer My Wife
It was in late 2006, in 09/12/2006. It was a flower and a couple of groomsmen wedding.
Simple, however, objective and made with love. We had the idea of making a wedding
to history but a wedding done right in God's eyes. Fortunately our home was totally
complete, at least the room was the only thing missing, but the details were already
purchased and waiting for the arrival. It was a very beautiful wedding, made by a
deacon. At the end of marriage we received a Bible. At the end of five years, it rests the
hopes full of love, a couple posthumously ended by a cruel and cold disease.
Not afraid to speak the word cancer. I always see people hitting the mouth, staring eye
tail or not wanting to talk about it. It is a disabling disease like any other disease such as
a heart attack or a stroke or stroke (cerebrovascular accident or Stroke). So I do not
mete out effort to always say the right words and necessary for each disease.
Whenever we gathered friends to meetings indoors. We always had food, games, much
chat, drink and very sweet. It was a much watered party binge and a tidal wave of
medications to the stomach. In one of these parties, my wife went very badly and went
to a Italian Hospital, to treat motion sickness and malaise. The doctor had asked her to
attend to a gastroenterologist to check rectal bleeding and treatments to treat them.
In a few days we were taking the exam, where my mother was there to help if needed. I
knew it was a tumor but did not know whether it was benign or malignant. Something
told me that, as a powerful voice guide me into a dark room. We entered, we talked to
the doctor and soon began a review made by the patient's rectum, a completely evasive
examination. Some time later, still sleepy, he called me into his office and told me it
was a tumor and the disease would determine the degree of it. Unfortunately he thought
it was a malignant tumor. At the end of consultation, groggy with drugs, he told what he
had seen and asked to be immediately to a doctor who can not remember the name and
not make it a point to remember. Because I believe that he must have done something
very wrong during treatment the removal of tumors. Anyway, it was an unethical man
as a person and professional.
We await the exams be ready when I received the news that my grandmother was very
ill because he had had a third hemorrhagic stroke (cerebrovascular accident). A few
days later, when the examination of the results was ready, and she really was not sure it
was a malignant cancer in the intestine. Just then, my grandmother had died in São
Paulo, with some close relatives, including my father and mother present. Doing what:
mourn the death of my beloved grandmother in São Paulo or to force my wife living in
Rio de Janeiro. I had no choice to be made, except to give strength to the treatment of
Ana Paula. My grandmother had gone to God and knew it was a beautiful and
Our families always hit it as far as possible. There we talked frequently, but were
always cordial and polite with both parties. On behalf of my mother, she spared no
effort to help in whatever way necessary, for mother of the Ana Paula thing was
reciprocal, but with caveats my person. Mother is a mother anywhere in the world and
we can not have the right to question certain aspects. But I would not like to comment
on these aspects in my book.
I remember once, during my heart surgery, I had said I would be at her side when she
needed. Unfortunately the time it was cancer. She never leaves her side and always
stayed until the last breath of his life.
I do not remember the date of the operation, but I believe it was very close to discovery.
She worked at a well-renowned Hospital in Rio de Janeiro and everything went
perfectly well. Only my wife was not well surgically because no standard surgery and
cause so many unbearable pain.
The first surgery she was hospitalized for 5 days. But she came home with severe pain
and without any plausible conclusion to this kind of conduct. We went back to the
hospital and she was hospitalized for over 7 days. Examinations were made and she still
complained of pain surgery. Doctors always said that this was a normal thing, the more
pain she felt were not normal. When people do any surgical procedure they improve
over time, but it just got worse. Again she went home and a few days later we went
back to the hospital. It was not normal for me to know that my wife felt pain and no one
did anything to help her. I already had called her doctors and told the absurd and
reckless way they were treating her, and there would be a negative response, wanted a
solution. She thousands of tests and found that there was a liver metastasis.
I was overwhelmed with how it happened. I do not know if it was a medical error,
hospital or anything that was. I felt powerless and unable at that time. A unique chance
to correct the mistake made was that the doctor told the news to her, it was done, but not
understood by her. I do not know if it was the pain, the drugs or the illusion of being
cured. A few days later, on the day of her chemotherapy, the doctor was plausible and
told of liver metastasis. A hard shock to a heart so hopeful. We scheduled surgery for
catheter and started the chemotherapy as soon as possible.
The first chemotherapy you never forget, right? It was something terrible for her and for
me. With a few hours of infusion, I saw his body deteriorating, joint pain, headache,
nausea and other terrible things. It was an unspeakable suffering, but she would with the
infusion pump to the house and after three days to withdraw infusion. A suffering that is
so fond of the person and love heart.
A few months passed and the tumors had begun to decline, but not quite. Her liver was
divided into the five large tumors and all impossible to be removed in surgery. More
tests were made and a complete surgery, they removed what they could from her liver. I
had already talked to the doctor about the possibility of his death, and he always
confirmed me the same thing. Possibility almost nil. This made me happy, and at the
same time sad and devastated to see a beautiful woman, perfect and good heart, fade
through a cancer that correi the soul, illusion and dream.
Our life was always full, even taking the health problems. Whenever we left and went to
bars at the home of friends and meetings in our humble residence. It was always a spree,
with games, food and booze. Unfortunately my wife could not drink, she also was not
much of a drinker, and even with all this was a spree such as laughed and had fun in
with the bullshit that everyone was talking about. She sometimes retreated to the
bedroom, with severe pain, but was part of the treatment. It was the fight that we had to
Over the years, the fight always getting worse, we find some other tumors, always doing
exams and treating as the disease progressed. Unfortunately she was going slowly, very
slowly and was certain possibility of death.
We had a funny episode during chemotherapy treatment. She thought she was pregnant.
My heart was the moon and returned within thunder. Like having a child in the state she
was in. But everything was debunked with a pregnancy test.
The last surgery was the implementation of an IUD. She had fibroids and needed to be
treated as soon as possible. Minor surgery was done and everything went very well. But
as the days passed, she began to get worse and worse knew it was an inevitable thing.
He was the doctor who implanted the IUD and the doctor thought it was time to go to
the hospital, she was not having weak to walk. I knew and she knew, somehow, that
was the last time our lives were going to have a happy ending.
Remember there was not spoken of my mother. But she was an exceptional person at
the end of his life. She was lucid and fully able to help me take care of her until the end
of its existence. Always listened to the doctors that the life of my wife, who was fading
and could not tell it to her. It was a death sentence that only I should know, she never
even though she knew he was going to another place.
Two days before his death, I talked to the doctor in the morning, about the possibility to
stay the last night with her, beside her and remembering the beautiful and wonderful
things we have achieved together. His answer was always no. But that afternoon he had
released me to sleep with her. It made me so happy and sad at the same time, it was our
farewell! I felt ungrounded! So devastated! At once I told her I would go home to get
some clothes and would soon return to the hospital, but that would be the only time I
find her lucid and able to spell a word. That shook me in such a severe way, but kept me
strong for the night I would have with it. I prayed a lot, all the saints and archangels for
the way it was in peace and without suffering.
The next day, I was so sad and totally unhappy, that a priest passed my bed and saw me
crying. He rocked me and asked if I could do an extreme unction, and I said yes. My
brother and sister were present. She was at peace and the doctor had already given a
medicine to ease her tension. In the afternoon it's gone forever.
"There are medicines for all kinds of diseases, but if these drugs are not taken in good
hands, wanting love, is not cured the most terrible diseases:. The condition of not
feeling loved" Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Words beautiful and perfect a perfect and kind woman. There is no other explanation
for so true facts and noble way. People want to be cured of disease, but the cure is not
on the pill you take, but the kind soul who handles. I was very careful in the face of
everything I gave to my wife. Medicines on time, food at the right time, lay down beside
you in times of pain and quietly prayed for his healing. I was a man of faith? Do not
know! I have no idea! I had the perfect woman beside me, saying I needed or not. I
remember that on the night before his death, she slept in peace and with the heart
slightly facing the sky. I held a Bible and read beautiful things and prayers that she
would never listen with your ears, but with an open heart for the love we felt for each
other. I read a quote that was said during our marriage and it made me strong for all. It
was: "Whoever hears these teachings and live in accordance with them is like a wise
man who built his house on the rock. The rain fell, the floods came, and the wind blew
hard against that house. But it did not fall because it was built on rock. ". Anyway, I do
not have more words and no strength to write. Only those who are loved, you know
what it is to be ...
Depression and Work
Depression is a very bad thing in the life of anyone. I did not know what was the
depression and the effects it provides our body. I felt, after her death, a void and nothing
could fill the gap she made me. Wake up thinking about her, did things thinking of her
and slept thinking of her. It was a very difficult time, I had to use a psychiatrist to try to
somehow solve this lack she made me.
After all, I still had to digest some things for me was not worth anything, but it was
something that needed to be done. No longer wanted the apartment, things that
reminded her, the car and all that could be applicant to weeping and sorrow. Everything
was passed to my mother in law and father in law, but with their proper legal powers
under the law.
I returned to work and began to fight and rebuild head back to the life that I still had. I
remember I started to go to college, worked too hard, always had some sites that
updated and was opening a small business. At 24 hours it was not enough for me. I
remember I arrived at work and always had two connected computers, the company and
mine. My college has always priority because he loved what he did, advertising, and
always got good grades. The sites always yielded me money and it was something that
was in my blood, I could not help but do. The company was almost closed, only needed
a signature. Then came my first stroke (Cerebral Valvular accident).
"If you feel bored when alone it is because it is in bad company." Jean-Paul Sartre
I feel alone: as a flower that dies falling out of a tree, lonely, empty and hopeless. But
she had hope when he was born, grew, bloomed, withered and fell in front of me. I am
full of friends, but friends are friends. In life we are always only for the life that goes on,
why we are born, we grow, mature, grow old and die. This is all a cycle to an end and
purpose. We have to mature our ideas, and expose to the world our ideology and belief
for humanity. I'm strong, too! Even if alone or not, fighting for life or not, I'm strong
because God made me this way and that's how I have to fight, fight and fight for a life
that believe and have faith that will come true.
My First Stroke
My first stroke, was difficult to write about something you really do not know or do not
understand at first. But I remember much and also remember people judging me as unfit
for life. It hurts so much, because I am not able and never will be.
My memory lapse is very limited when trying to describe how it happened. But I swear
I will try to write as much as possible of the things that happened. I remember this day I
went to the city center to sign my contract with my friend Rafael. I was excited and
could not wait to start putting forward the project of my life. I remember it was an
online internet and selling design, but just remember that.
I worked at the Maracana, one of the branches. As it was late, I took a taxi and went to
the City Centre to meet him and his accountant wife. How it was the way I went down
to the church Our Lady of Childbirth, to pray for my wife and grandmother, a very
typical habit in my life. I went to the chapel of the church and bought two candles and
went to the scene to light them. It was a beautiful moment, where I cried, I prayed and
asked that they estivem in a much better place than I am. I always thought so and
always think. Life is short, so we must always do the things that make us happy.
After leaving the church, a dark cloud has blocked all my thoughts. Who I was? Where I
was? Silly questions, but did not know at all, but nothing. I remember certain things,
like my friend for example, but did not remember his name. I found him in front of the
church, he asked me if it was okay, and I said yes. But rhetorical question because I do
not know if it was good or bad what was happening to me.
I followed him as followed an ant in the middle of a forest. We went to the notary to
sign the papers to conclude the business in question. I remember they gave me papers to
be signed, but did not remember my name, my address, age who had at last I could not
remember anything. My friend was a little scared me and he did not know what was
happening because it could be a momentary evil. He took my wallet to see your home
address because he knew I had a mechanical valve in the heart and had all the data
concerning the same and saw that he had enough money to take a taxi. He already had
called my parents and they already waiting for me at the door. When I arrived I did not
say anything. I lay down and slept for one hour.
I had headache problems? No. I had motor problems? No. I had nothing to accuse such
a serious problem. Unfortunately only knew sleep, watch TV and sleep again. My
parents were worried about me and went to a hospital, where he did not reveal anything
more about what happened to me. Unfortunately a hospital that did not have an MRI
was not a decent place to trust. They gave me four days of medical certificate and could
return to work normally.
I slept in those four days uninterruptedly, watching television sporadically. My brother
had arrived in Brasilia and came to see me and know what was going on. At once he
had realized my crooked mouth and did not say anything with anything, immediately
went to a hospital, it was a typical stroke table (Stroke).
Until now it was a stroke (cerebrovascular accident), but did not know if it was
ischemic or hemorrhagic. But knew it was a serious and difficult problem acceptance by
the general public. Unfortunately people dictate the rules, as something natural, as a
crippled person, with part of the body paralyzed and no future ahead. I found myself so,
that way, no future and no prospects.
I did several tests and passed several cardiologists to neurologists, and the diagnosis
was a stroke Ischemic due to an aortic valve clotting which was below 1 INR
coagulation (blood factor). My INR, should be between 2.5 and 3.5 coagulation. Always
managed to blood tests, but of fate, was totally out of control. I was hospitalized for 15
days between CTI and fourth, and was soon released from hospital.
It was a few months a lot of introspection. I did not know to talk, read, write and talk. I
thought that was the end of my life. I thought I could not be what I was and so little I
wanted to be in the distant future. I remember when I got home, my mother had become
my father, my father had become my mother, my dog was named chair and my brother
and my sister were strangers.
Each day that passed in my dark room and under the duvet, it was a moment that meant
nothing to me, because he had a television to meet my will. My money was in my
father's hand, but he was always clear and honest, left everything on the desk, as notes,
bills etc. But that did not interest me anymore.
My mood was bad, my memory was empty and my thoughts were completely torn
apart, the disease that had affected me. I remember my medicines were given in my
hand, but I did not know what was taking. Life becomes so empty when times as serious
and unresolved problem.
I started going to doctors as speech therapists, physiotherapists and psychologists. They
were boring moments for me, because I did not want to do any of that. I just wanted to
watch television and lie under my duvet. But I do not know why, I think something was
pulling me into the street and made me go at will, as if something made me see that it
all had a purpose, a plus or my life back.
Extremely difficult and hard moments, where the lack of interest was fully justified. But
the voice always said I was on track and could not let go never do these treatments
boring, but necessary.
I made a few months treatment for physiotherapy, which corrected my left cheek. My
speech therapist who dropped by my lack of interest. And my psychologist Dra. Angela
Israel, which was the great savior of my treatment, because without it I would not exist.
I am so grateful for all she did for me. She knew me before the disease then, and she
assured me that I would ever be 100% healed. But for that were difficult months,
treatments and boring conversations.
Once, during the treatment of stroke, my brother had called me to go to São Paulo for a
change of scenery. It was an incredible moment, because I needed it to try to make my
life make sense somehow. Were incredible moments because we knew museums,
shopping malls, restaurants and we were the first premiere of The Addams Family. It
was the first time I went to São Paulo, but it was a liberation that I needed to keep my
active life again.
Where did the urge to want to see the world. And then I called my friend Amanda to
know the Argentina. She had known the country, but the will to want to know a little
more of the world, was a new thing for me. I know it to 24 years or more, one dearest
friend and a very strong temperament. So much so that we get along so well. So we
bought the ticket, hotel, tours and travel. It was a beautiful and wonderful trip. I'll never
forget how good was this time outside Brazil: no parents, no brother, no doctors and no
nothing that could keep me prisoner before the fight I had in Brazil. Four days were
But I wanted more ... a trip mine alone and I did. He had already talked to my
psychologist about it and she agreed that I had the need to explore the world, I felt the
need to want to seize this moment. I bought a ticket to São Paulo and not regret
anything because it was a trip that made me grow and mature. My parents had a heart
attack, but could not do anything, it was my life that was being treated and evaluated for
myself. It was a wonderful trip and that freed me of corretes a disease for me, no more.
Soon after, travel to Curitiba, Santa Catarina, inside the Rio de Janeiro and all made me
grow exponentially and rewarding way. Always I talked to my psychologist about
Rodrigo who was inside me, before and after the stroke. The question was simple and
straightforward: Do you identify with Rodrigo before or after stroke? Always I said I
like Rodrigo I am now: a giant heart before the world. Always agreement and make the
following question: I am a happy or sad face on the world? The answer is happy for life.
"We can do no great things - only small things with great love" Mother Teresa of
It's so pure and true words of a noble-hearted woman like Mother Teresa. I wanted to
0.0001% of wisdom that divine woman possessed. But, I have the gift and the power she
had and has in the hearts of people. Do small things, but with love. That's the honest
truth and sincerity that a woman said to me. Always craved great things and tortuous
before I could perform them. But there came a woman: simple, uncomplicated words
and a simple way, which gave me a great life lesson. The words are great inspirations
to life. Are small projects, made with love, which changed the lives of so many people
who need and can leave the darkness of a hole full of hatred and anguish. I got over 4
times the dark holes that life has imposed me, full of negative words and void wills. But
I believe a word that brings a lot of hope in life: faith. If I had faith I have today for all
who live and believe, I'd still be in one of four dark holes and without hope.
My second stroke and heart operation
I remember like it was today, it was on January 19, 2013, the day of my wife's birthday.
Was it a sign? I think so. My life changed just when the first symptoms of the second
stroke (cerebrovascular accident). It was a mixture of panic and at the same time, I
knew what I should do. It was a repetitive and regular bid, like I was ready for that
moment. I felt the pain in his left arm, but discarded the possibilities that could be a
heart attack or a stroke (cerebrovascular accident). I went to the Rio D'or.
It was the home of a good friend of mine called Anderson, who took me promptly to
Rios D'or. Fortunately he did not leave my side in no time even when doctors were
present. I thank too the big heart help in such a difficult time.
I entered the Rios D'or, and said to the attendant who was having a heart attack.
Unfortunately, a person who had a heart operation and Ischemic Stroke, can not go a
minute without service code red. I was quickly led to an electrocardiogram and then to a
doctor who once me a battery and questions. The questions were simple, but the
answers were complicated for my head at that moment. I felt a sharp pain in his left
arm, but she had spent during the coming to the hospital. The memory was a little
confused, did not remember the name of the drugs, did not remember events that
occurred during my coming to the hospital, but I knew something was wrong and was
sure it would be the second stroke.
I was promptly taken to a bed, in front of the medical team that watched me intently. I
find it amusing stay in a bed readily turned to doctors who are always evaluating me. Of
course! They do not want me to have a heart attack or something, but I find it very
funny. It should be a standard hospital or something. Did X-ray, blood tests, echo
cardiogram and finally an MRI skull. The result came out and I was absolutely sure that
my sources were safe, I had a second Ischemic Stroke. As you have opened a vacancy
for the ICU (Intensive Care Unit), I called my parents and told them. Well, I need not
tell the drama of my mother to know he was in the hospital. I told my dad that could
come tomorrow, was ready to go up and that should solve the payment of my bills with
the INSS. Anyway, it was totally normal, full and absolute everything he did and ready
to fight again.
The next day I met the doctor in charge cardiological my case, talked and decided to
conduct a survey boring, but necessary, transesophageal echo. Well, for those who do
not know this examination is done through the throat to see the heart more inside, like
an endoscopy. In my case, it was really necessary to perform a second operation
because the blood clot was much worse and there was a risk of leaving the heart and
going to the brain. Anyway, God was not a wonderful person to me? I had the desire to
change the mechanical heart valve, a tissue valve. We discussed it among doctors and I
and tenths switch to organic valve. It operate again to 20 years, and will be one million
times faster is practical. I guarantee!
On the day of surgery, everything was done in the most perfect possible order. It was a
quiet and perfect surgery. I realized that much had changed in the two surgeries, and
there were things for the better. Points, surgery time, food etc.
In two weeks I was home with my regular pain for 3 months of operation, finally do
what. But I was alive!
"Intense Love is not assessed, only gives" Mother Teresa of Calcutta
People need both believe in love, because it would save the world. I do my part in order
to express myself and tell the truth that is in my heart. It is difficult, very difficult, but
nothing matters if what we say is pure and sincere heart. I do not want legions around
me, like a cult. I want to captivate people by the look, the expressions, the feeling of the
words and say that they can be happy. Everyone in this world can be happy. Just
enough to want! Then love, that's it ... I give myself completely. It makes me so great a
Whenever I walk through the forest of Tijuca, walked 10, 18 or 24 km a day in
Paineiras or Sumaré, walk trails by Parrot peaks and Tijuca and then do gym with
weight training, spinning, abdominal and stretching. Every day the same routine and
some time off to go to museums, cinemas or nothing to do, watching TV is good too.
But always connected to everything and everyone, like Instagram, Facebook and e-
mails. Despite help my fitness, I have to keep my projects I do with love, always at the
forefront of my life.
In my life, I always had misgivings, and always correct. One day and one night, I felt a
strong pain very strong head. I thought it was a pain to livestock, medicine and I passed.
But the next day I felt bad and no mood for anything. In the afternoon, after the bath, I
felt my face a little crooked. Fortunately I knew it was not very good. It would be a
third stroke? Quickly went to the Quinta D'or see what was happening.
As usual, I gave all previous detailing and historical problems that had already had. As
always, I entered an electrocardiogram and two doctors came to check out that I was
checking me. The beginning was a third stroke, but they were astonished with the
beating of my heart. Beats? Heart? What do you mean?
They explained that the beating of my heart should beat up 60 beats per minute, but my
rate were 30 beats per minute and falling. Would make exams as soon as possible of
heart, including those related to you celebrate and I was giving input to the ICU
(Intensive Care Unit Coronary).
Life fold each piece in us! Silly things become bad things and vice versa. How would
Fernando Pessoa, we have to have giant heart for the world. Coco Chanel said that we
have to head to think about how to perform. Cora Coralina, beautiful poet, said that we
must take heart and emotion in the simple things of life. I think so! I'm like this! I will
always be so!
So to think negative things I can think of positive things. All examinations were terrible,
but the reality of the things that came to me were such a profound energy, which could
not say I would not go out of that hospital alive. I would come out of there alive and
wanting my Tijuca forest again, with the green around me and my muddy feet.
My diagnosis was that of a CHB (Lock Atrio Ventricular Total). A beautiful name for
those who want to say that the heart is breaking. But it was true, it could stop at any
time. So the inclusion of the pacemaker. Unfortunately many hospitals, doctors and the
like get out of it. But this was the way to keep me alive. It was the icing on my cake was
Each doctor who passed and watched the monitors, were shocked by the vitality and age
I was and kept at each moment over my bed. I always distributed smiles, always said
good morning, good afternoon, good evening, thank you, nothing and other things that
Mom and Dad taught me. I was not a miracle or a warrior or a hero or anything like
that. I was there to keep my life except what might happen. But my plans were not death
A medical arrhythmologist cardiologist came to my bed and talked to me about the
pacemaker, and brought greater light on their symptoms and benefits. My only fear was
not able to exercise and walk my 15 to 24 km per day. But nowadays, many athletes do
this and participate in marathons. Then, the operation was confirmed.
I had the surgery on 02.12.2014 and on 20.12.2014, was walking in the forest of Tijuca,
only God and me, thanking him for all he had given me. Two months ago, I had
climbed the Path of Gávea, with a terrific team, "Trails of Rio de Janeiro." I have great
friends as Claudinho Silveira, Marcos Rabello, Paulinho Nurseries and others who
promote these trails at Rio de Janeiro. Even not knowing the problem that I had, they
were a colossal strength and up to the end with me. I saw the most widely read view of
all of Rio de Janeiro. Crying for something that has already passed! Butter even melted.
But it was the most spectacular rise and friends as noble and loyal.
"What did you what did you?" Jean-Paul Sartre
Sometimes I think about what I was and what I am. Bizarre comparison in relation to a
disease and various diseases that made me what I am today. Anyway, let the facts: it
could have been a successful person professionally or a sad person and defeated for not
doing more. I ignore these options, for I am totally averse as indeed I am. I never felt so
happy in my life, so much heart and soul and hope. I always had a positive response
from my psychologist about what I was and what I am. I will not speak in the past, do
not remember and I must remember. I remember I got this on the life and works which
have grown in life. God was a person who wrote beautiful things, but with letters
bottles, stunned and paradoxical way. But I am forever grateful for everything he wrote
and will continue writing, majestic and imperfectly. God is not the guy?
I can not attempt to describe something that many saw few enjoyed and never
appreciated indeed. The Tijuca forest is a unique imagination for anyone, and it was for
me. The beginning of a life full of hopes and love with the heart.
One day you will see me climbing the Paineiras, Sumaré or large Tijuca peaks. Walking
my 10, 15, 18 or 24 km every day and always doing my famous academy.
I'm always uniform, with the shirt "My Story - Heart, Cancer, stroke and Pacemaker".
Many find it funny. But it is the pure and sincere truth. I won and still winning every
day, every hour, every minute and every second.
That to me is the sheer force of will that exists in the world and would not trade for
anything and anyone ...
"It is better to be silent and let people think you are a jerk wants to talk and end the
doubt." Abraham Lincoln
Sometimes I think just like that. I'd better keep quiet and let the doubt inflict on people's
minds. But I can not (laughing). It is much stronger than me. But for a well needed and
expose a bit to my life, some people need to know what happened to me. It's something
called, law of return. I think you know what it is? Anyway, the people who harvest the
plant, plant some more bad things and other plant good things. For me, it's always good
to talk to people who have reaped good results, it does me good. Now, those who
planted and not harvested little or nothing, I always help with a friend sentence. I
always have a phrase in mind for each situation. Some accept, reflect and others do not
care. Well, I'm here to help, only accept. My law of return is overflowing with joy and
happiness, so I'm always willing to help. Maybe you're not the next? Just warning you,
do not charge anything. It's free.
I am so happy to tell something that had never put on paper in bottles letters and with a
touch of emotion and gratitude for so many people. It's such a relief to write something
so beautiful and wonderful that happened to me. It could have happened to anyone, but
hope to happen to me, it was something incredible. I had the heart to write things not
remember more and I'm sorry if you do not remember everything. Fortunately the focus
is always that, the simple truth of a true story. Always remember to return something
and write again, because the cycle never closes, it is continuous.
I came this little poem by Gonçalves Dias, who says: "My land has palm trees, | Where
sings Sabia; | Birds that sing here, | not sing like there ... ". This beautiful poem is the
truth I feel for Rio de Janeiro, for we can not have palm trees and thrushes as there are
Whenever I walk by the immense and tortuous Tijuca Forest, bring me amazing
memories. I remember when I tried to remember a poem and frustrated me when I
realized that no longer remembered more. It was a poem made in third grade, many
would not remember, but I remember, but it was forgotten through my thoughts. One
day, climbing the forest, remembered as if it were something I knew and never would
forget. They were precious seconds and a joyful cry. Remember poetry so pure and
simple is beautiful too. A few seconds later, I forgot the sweet words of a verse again
forgotten by me. I remember it was on the water, about mermaids and treasure. One day
I remember with tenderness and affection that a beautiful poem deserves to have.
This is the end of my book, which tells a true story full of pride, love and peace. Hope
you enjoyed. Because I sure loved ...
"Patience is not only an energy." George Sand
Patience is such a powerful energy that we always have to have it in our hearts. I lately
do not have much patience with things that come up in my life, because I want to
yesterday and not for the distant future. But it takes a lot of patience intact and
refreshed every second. It gives me strength to continue taking my long journey of life,
for people who believe in my words of love and happiness.
Letters and Poem
The prose is what feeds the soul and the spirit. I hope you like my prose, as is done with
all the giant heart that I have.
"Being happy is for those who have courage." Dona Canô
Really happiness is something outrageous for me. I can not describe in words how much
it is beautiful. Being happy is for those who can and have the courage to say it so as
singular and unique to the listener. Dona Canô, you were a brave person. Amen to you
"Recreate your life, always, always. Remove stones and plant rose bushes and makes
sweets. Resumes." Cora Coralina
I recreate my life constantly! Like them come beautiful things and them came the most
beautiful things yet, and everything is transformed into something wonderful. Life is a
lesson to be displayed every second. We can not let life settle and be simple spectators
of their own will. We must be the people who make our own orchestra. That's life being
lived. My life, I've traced. And you?
"More hope in my footsteps than sadness on my shoulders." Cora Coralina
In my footsteps there are no sorrows. Only count on the joys that life gives me and
nothing else. For lead sorrows, if I can live intense joys. The slumped shoulders before
my annoyances, do not exist in my tired back, disillusionment. I'm an expert, but we
have to live them more and become strong in front of their disappointments. So I always
say that the legs are the trajectory of our existence. For without them, would not live
and not gozaríamos of a pure and divine beauty, which is a walk without additional
weights on their shoulders.
"Do not mourn what might have been lost and astray and never came back." Cora
Life leads us to wrong paths always, throughout his life. We must have the manhood to
know which path to take. Always I had a peculiar thought regarding the paths to be
plotted. I remember with great nostalgia, of a conversation I had with my wife. It was
late at night, a starry sky, beautiful by the way. We talked about ways to follow, before
giant and enormous obstacles that we should take. However, we should follow the right
road together. I always said the same thing: we have two paths to be followed. One was
the shortest route, and may be faster, but more uncertain. The other was the twisting
and winding path full of obstacles, but this would be the walk that would lead to
happiness. We take the second path. Unfortunately death was right for her, she had died
of cancer. Unfortunately we had no solution. Continued following the same path,
tortuous, full of heartbreak, full of regrets overcome, full of dark caves, where I stayed
for a long time. But the sun shone and a voice came saying I was on the right track.
Even cross the same winding road, but with much more joy and love in the heart. These
are feelings that always learn from our parents and grandparents. I swear, free and
open heart of sorrows, I am very happy. They are clean in his teachings.
"One must first find, then cut to reach the naked flesh of emotion." Claude Debussy
I found the naked flesh of emotion a few times in my life. It is a pitiful sight, but felt it
was necessary to get to the point where I was. The excitement did not exist and modesty
did not shake anymore. Why get to this point in life? Do not know. I think it was a point
that I needed to go. But time heals all wounds, especially the shattered and destroyed
emotion. Today I am a young man, full of vigor and impeccable high spirits. I believe
very much in pain that inflicts us for life, but not for the sheer pain of fact, but the
maturity we build.
"Poetry is both a cache and a speaker." Nadine Gordimer
Poetry, the simple poetry of an old or a new writer, is a wonderful thing in the ears of
educated people with heart and soul. It would be hypocritical to say that poetry should
be told to the four winds and stimulated to know every child? Yes I think. I have full
conviction that poetry yes, gross or not, should be estingada and designed the little
heads of every human being. It would be good a speaker, giant and the size of a
building. So everyone would know the poems we hide under the heart.
"All that is unknown is considered by magnificent." Tacit
Nothing is so beautiful as the love we feel for the people helpless health and soul.
Unfortunately people do not remember the basic meaning of life, which is health. The
aim of this site is to promote the health above all. I'm not ashamed to tell my cases and
say how much it was hard for me to get out of where I was. Were over 10 years a lot of
fight, a lot of pain, a lot of bad feelings and despair inaudible to you, but torture for me.
However, I had the chance to fight and see that life is filled with joy and will to live. To
lie for nothing and not get up and get a little sun! I think the very people who need help
or families who need support. I wonder how hard it is to know you have a disease, but
the cure is denied, denied by the taxpayers themselves, not just the government. I am
sad to know that bad things that speak of diseases that are fully cured or have a decent
treatment for survival, are forgotten. Today, I remembered Fernando Pessoa, that went
like this: ". I have in me all the dreams of the world" I have this dream of helping and
welcoming people who need help, who need wisdom or who need a friendly hug. It does
not hurt! Not really hurts! This feeds the soul and the heart of who makes it happen.
Think about it...
"If someone searches for health, asks first whether it is willing to avoid in the future the
causes of disease; otherwise, refrains you to help him." Socrates
The disease is one of the saddest things that exist. I do not judge a toothache with
terminal cancer. The pain is the same, every human being reacts in adverse ways. Some
may be sad, shaken, tearful etc. But pain is pain. I know how difficult it is going through
a cancer in the family, my wife lived it and I lived it too directly. Tristíssimos were
moments, though were moments of extreme and invigorating laughter. As well, you
laugh with his wife at such a crucial, between life and death? Of course! We can never
stop living and be happy the way life takes us. Fortunately, our house was attracting
many dear friends and wonderful people. Always going on Friday or Saturday and
returned on Sunday. It was a will of savory, sweet, drinks, games etc. It was the life that
I could provide for her, a life of joy and love with your best friends. Everyone knew of
malignant tumors and did not care about that. Only her presence was enough to keep
the beautiful, serene and full of peace house. I do not know if I said her name, I think it
hid this information not to further expose your beautiful memory. His name was Ana
Paula, beautiful, strong and fearless character like never saw. She had no measures to
nothing, if want to dance, dance. If you wanted to get out, get out. If you wanted to
drive, driving. The effort to live, came naturally and the will to live was always exposed
and never contained. We had many fights, various operations, hospitalizations, tests,
medicines, but always with a broad smile and will always be what she was, happy! I've
always had a very famous phrase, which went like this: Whenever my, always yours,
always our ...
"Sometimes things just are what appear to be no big deal." Charles Bukowski
Am I crazy? I do not know if I am. Only following a path that I think fair and honest
with me and the people who need me. It can be crazy or not, but I think both things that
follow my journey and that open doors as expeças. I believe in things as they should
come naturally. I'm not a crazy, swept in unclean hair, knocking on doors, looking for
something to say. I seek an identity for my life, one truth to my life and simple harmony
of all the facts. That to me, is not madness but facts to be plotted and perpetrated on the
world. World so huge! I wanting to embrace the whole world. I think I reached the
beginning of the question. I'm not crazy, not just wanna hold one person at a time.
"We're all going to die, that circus! That alone should cause us to love each other, but
do not." Charles Bukowski
We will all die. Indeed! Arguably is a natural process, biological and morally fit to any
judgment. Only that people should love more, kiss more, hug more, do a lot of affection
and other well-catchy things. But people do not do any of that. Fortunately I am a small
and poor little poet who lives the illusions of other large and perfect writing masters
and knowledge. It taught me a lot to think about and understand how much life is short,
and worthless be disappointed with such small matters. I think always great, always in
a great mood, so I can see how much I am happy and intend to bring this happiness to
other people. That's the way I want to grow, live and die in a normal way. However,
joyful in the eyes of people who believe or IRAM believe in my words, in a very distant
"The most annoying in love is that it is the type of crime that requires an accomplice."
I hate love! Always complicate me with acts as simple and complex. Simple, why to
love, do not need anything, just a love match. It would be so nice if we all had a key,
and it could find a love reciprocated between two hearts. It would be the perfect love!
But perfect love, is the exception. The complexes, complexes loves, these are totally out
of context and out skillfully diagram. Fortunately we have something to control our
anxiety among complexed hearts: calm. Yes, it really is the search for love I speak with
all and absolute reason. Today, it is difficult to find people who consider themselves
able to love, to relate, to know, to take a chance, however small. I think too much in
relationships I've had, and I see that learned a lot in every situation. I am very cautious
in love someone, but if love is forever. So let's not get simple and complex love for our
lives. Let's just look for the heart that beats for each other.
"A dead soul is a completely conformed soul." Charles Peguy
I do not believe in souls that are supported only on a knife edge or conformed not to
exist. The soul is everything in a person's life. I have a wonderful soul, full of a lot of
hope and full of joy. People who delude themselves and say they are shaped, are
completely wrong. Every human being has a soul, sad or happy. Why not bring your
soul for happiness, for harmony of good friends and prejudice-free. Life would be a
perfectly human thing, before all that happens in the world. I think the people who do
not have a pious soul and lacking affection. Unfortunately there are people who go
through problems, and these problems always have a solution. Imagine a child with
cancer, about one adult to die without a heart, people with strokes, strokes and even a
deep depression. They are horrible and unimaginable things to human eyes. I went
through all this: I had two open heart operations, had two are celebrating stroke, deep
depression, I put a pacemaker and also suffered with cancer my wife. Now I ask you a
single question: My soul was dead on the conformity of life? At all, he has always been
and always will be alive before any sacrifice that I will spend in the future. I do not
think that my life will be a bed of roses or flowering with orange trees. Unfortunately I
will have to operate again, again and again, until God calls me. It makes me sad and
unhappy with the soul resigned to living like this forever? Of course not! I will have
several surgeries to exchange battery for pacemaker and I will have two more open-
heart operations to switch the valves of my heart. Thank God I have the strength to fight
and courage to do what I want. Now I ask you a question: And you, my friend and
friend, you have a soul formed before the wonder that life can provide? Sorry, but you
really need much talking to someone and see that everything, absolutely everything, is
well worth living.
'' ... If you live judging people, have no time to love them ... '' Mother Teresa
I would have no more love to give people? Does my love is as empty as the cold wind of
winter? Does my thoughts about love are dry and arid as the summer of the Sahara? I
do not know and do not answer this question so difficult for me right now. I'm sure the
love I feel for the people is huge, the size of the world, but do not feel well today.
Because? I had a wonderful night's sleep and the pillow's side, was the most beautiful
person and without malice at heart, my dog called Pitty. In fact, it is Brand Pitty, called
for my wife. Anyway, do what! I woke up in the morning like I always do and I asked the
question to God: I want to be happy or sad today? I had a definite and as little
conclusive answer to this day. I was always so happy, happy, happy, kind, affectionate,
human and many other things that matter to me. But now, I am nothing. No one wants
an empty body, among other empty bodies walking around without feelings and soul.
Did Mother Teresa could help me answer my question of love? Just seeing the lovely
smile, I feel thrilled. But what the love I feel, where is it? I do not know, I have no idea
and I swear it is not under my pillow.
"It has always remember that skin wrinkles, the hair becomes white, the days turn into
years, but most importantly does not change: your inner strength." Mother Teresa
People age. Become more vivid and less vivid. Become more mature and less mature.
Become less wrinkled and more wrinkled. Become happier and less unhappy. We could
for thousands of situations that happen to a person from a young age and old age itself.
I do not know if I'm getting old, with my white hair, my unshaven and wrinkles
appearing between the eyes. I know I'm getting mature and aware that the world
belongs to the older, but old exacerbated maturity. I know the word exacerbated, may
contain something more exaggerated or something that has increased exponentially.
But I do not say in this sense, but in the zeal of projection that we have to have with the
people around us and the world in front of us. Thank God, I am a mature person,
exacerbated, exaggerated and happy with my controversial aspects. However, that is
not? I write what I think, what goes through my heart and so maintain a healthy
dialogue. We become happier people from now on, always taking follow with a pinch of
love, hope, joy and happiness. This is what is lacking to make the world more human.
Please, let's forget the diseases. I have thousands of health problems, I am more happy
and content, what matters and that is what makes me happy.
"All human beings have extraordinary desires. There are times when you rejoices with
things, others in which they grieves over. The ups and downs are part of life of each.
The most important in this life is to do something that is beneficial to others. You must
truly have an altruistic attitude:. This is what gives meaning to life "Dalai Lama
I was being totally beneficial to my own reason. I was not thinking of others, only me.
This attitude was wrong, selfish, harmful myself. How can I think about being
something I'm not. All human beings are extraordinary in their own way, and we have
to be rejubilados on the good things and sad, in their moments of high and low spirits.
The meaning of human existence, is given in control of true meaning of life, which is
"This is my simple religion There is no need for temples;. There is no need for
complicated philosophy Our own brain, our own heart is our temple;. The philosophy is
kindness." Dalai Lama
Kindness is the most natural thing in a religion. I am Roman Catholic Apostolic, and
within my religious views, I am a Espiritism well. I know that many people make of their
God and their own divine person. I believe much of it, each with their religion and
living in peace with each other. This is all coming goodness of people's hearts. We can
not believe that only "reading" is what you say. For philosophy comes from within and
each, in a spontaneous interpretation of life and faith. The philosophy is kindness that
we carry within us and we make it to expand to others in a natural and simple way. I
wish I could say nice things to people. But people need to be open to accept and
understand my words, for they are mine. The interpretation of the listener, comes from
the philosophy of those who live and believe. We will accept things as they are:
learning, teaching, and taking care saying. This is the best wisdom that exists within
"Being happy is to stop being a victim of the problems and become an author of history
itself. You know talk about himself. It is not to be afraid of your own feelings ..."
I am a victim of my own history and I do not want people to think I'm a poor guy. I am
worthy of respect and desire respect from anyone. I'm not a patient! I am a person alive
and spontaneous character, latent and sure I have much to offer. I know I'm not a great
writer, but what I do brings benefits to the poor and needy and bring humanity to those
who need love and care. I do not walk the Paineiras, Sumaré and Picos why I like, why
do I want to feel the need to be worthy of honorable adventurers. I like to feel the
adrenaline in the heart and the blood pounding through my arteries. I love to take
picture, because that keeps me alive and full, this is something wonderful to see and feel
the green in the pictures. I enjoy writing, why the ideology and the sincerity of each
writer, makes me mature and grow as a person every second. I do not write for me, but
for people who feel the excitement that spring from my heart. They may have errors or
Portuguese grammars failures, but the text does not come from my subconscious, but
the bowels of a brave and fearless heart. I have my projects in media around the world,
not only in Brazil, because I believe that I speak and write, should be read by anyone.
I'm writing a book about my life, telling sad stories, but human and real, that can make
a person cry with emotion. Following now for volunteering: a challenge. I can really
change the way of thinking and acting, and I know I will learn a lot from the stories that
I will listen and absorb. That's my little life, running and full of obstacles, which drive
very well and of itself and capable way. Unfortunately I can not take a course, as there
are neural interfaces that prevent me, but I'm trying to get them back. Unfortunately
nothing is so easy and simple in life. My psychologist always asks me whether I want
the life I had before. I always answer: to live life as it should be lived. This is me,
cheerful, loving, happy and able to embrace the world. So, my dear friend, I'm not a sad
person, much less bitter suffering. I am a free person, and able to jump delta and
"The award by a well-made thing is to have it done." Ralph Waldo Emerson
Always we deserve an award before the conquest achieved. But that prize would that
be? Gold for first place. I do not believe it and so little believe we have awards to be
achieved, if not dedicate ourselves even more to the purposes we deserve. Life is short
and it should be lived intensely and fully before any victory. We need many people
capable of doing good and not achieve a prize at the end of each day. This is the fight
that I have with myself, because awards are not enough me. I want to see the smile,
mischievous, a child with cancer in remission. That smile has no prize!
"What we call sin in others, for us is experience." Ralph Waldo Emerson
The experience of life is a magnificent thing. I wish I could have the life experience of
many years ago. But it comes with time, with the problems and the solutions obtained in
this arduous route. I grew up a lot over the years and were extremely perilous times, but
with an invaluable life value. Are the experiences that we must always to test and
enhance the victory that we must always achieve.
"Whenever you can, talk of love and with love for someone. It's good in the ears of those
who hear and soul of the speaker." Sister Dulce
For some time now I do not write about love or happiness. I do not know if I lost the
tone or gave time to the things that make me so well. Honestly I do not know what
happened, but I'm here to try to correct my mistake and be able to write about the most
beautiful thing in the world, which is love. The words of Sister Dulce is living proof that
love is such a beautiful and complex gift, only who knows intende.