1. A journey “ Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.”

2. With every great loves comes a great story….. A broken hearted girl playing halo with her friends. She rawked the halo 2. No comment for halo 1. Also… footsies under the couch.

3. The “original” date Complete with whomp trees and creaking doors.

4. And the movie… A movie followed by a perfect kiss on a brown and tattered couch.

5. Training. He ran faster than me. He let me know he ran faster than me. But I swam better. Jury is out on who bikes faster. I’m gonna say me.

6. Further encounters..

7. A freak out. A time where communication was made by text. Quotes and fun. But also great Misunderstanding. She bought a cell phone just to text him, but…

8. Leading to… The emo version of Amanda.

9. One month later… Drunken texting at a games night. “ I just need you to know how gorgeous you Look. Anton is a lucky man. X o x o” And in the morning it wasn’t forgotten…. + + +

10. Or the days after…

11. And it went on like that for awhile… “ The island was no longer just a blur on the horizon, but it was within reach, only a couple of miles away from the raft and the tide had started to break. The ride in was beginning to get choppy, picking up and dropping the raft, a rough ride in for there water worn tramps.”

12. And I made him a gift… Cause I’m just like that….

13. Then finally…. The truth…

14. Tekkamaki

15. But it was too intense I guess…

16. So we just ‘were’. Surprise turkey dinner? Wtf?! :)

17. And of course texting is delightful Who’s got syphilis now bitch? …. Kinga does. Erm. (is it too early to laugh about that?)

18. And I decided to give up. But I’m a sucker for punishment…

19. A new light…

20. And dreams. Of Cook Islands. Moving away. And of perfect love. From Mac at Nov 21, 2008 13:10 : Both, if you came to me tomorrow saying lets go and that we could survive. I would, but lets go to the cook islands Send To Mac at Nov 21, 2008 13:13 : Okay, cook islands it is. See, you just need a passport, and that is easy. And then use the remaining part of my credit for plane tickets. I'd get a job teaching and you could go to school. We could live in a tiny bungalo or on a fruit plantation. Or we could just open a little restaurant. From Mac at Nov 21, 2008 13:14 : You know what. That sounds so good. Don't tempt me.

21. And a trip.

22. Which was amazing…. Send To Mac at Dec 8, 2008 11:44 : I wish I knew how to stop time. From Mac at Dec 8, 2008 11:47 : Why's that? Send To Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:14 : Things move by so fast. Then the special moments are gone. From Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:20 : Such as ? Send To Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:21 : You know, those moments you'd rather be living in than stuck in the dismal everyday. From Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:22 : Like anime hats on a sky train? Send To Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:22 : Lol yeah. Exactly. From Mac at Dec 8, 2008 13:23 : ;-)

23. Filling in the last weeks.

24. Promises… From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:42 : Its all going to be ok. I am not going to disappear. Any thing hard is usually worth while in the end. X o x o wish there were real Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:44 : I don't understand why you would wait. Made me cry a little From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:45 : Why would i wait?!? Have you met miss.hugh? Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:46 : Lol yes. Nothing out of the ordinary From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:47 : Out of the ordinary, i think you meant you met her and you think She's extraordinary! Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:54 : No way. I'm just scared of what I can offer you. From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:57 : i haven't started freaking out yet. You want a guy to fight for you then you get out of the ring before the bell even starts the match. Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:58 : I'm not out of the ring!! I'm just scared From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:59 : Well then stay in for a bit. We can figure this out. But enjoy christmas first. Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 21:59 : I wasn't going to leave this. I'm afraid you will I'm in for the long haul. From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 22:01 : Well then lets see how long of a haul it will be. Can't beat two 15hour drive's Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 22:01 : I enjoyed those drives :-) From Mac at Dec 23, 2008 22:03 : Take it easy, hot tub, eat Sushi, work out. Things will come together... What have you done to me? Even i am positive... We'll work out. Send To Mac at Dec 23, 2008 22:03 : We better. I'm not letting you go! You'll have to drag me kicking and screaming

25. Wondering. From Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:31 : I don't know. With both of our debts and obligations are we being stupid? Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:31 : What?! Your the one that was all try try this is worth it...! Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:31 : Do you think it's stupid? From Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:32 : Well you have your doubts can't i have mine? Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:32 : Yeah... I guess. But we both have to be strong and supportive. And we would go the rest of our lives knowing and wondering if we missed out on true love. Broken hearted From Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:34 : I know. And no i don't think its stupid but it isn't smart either Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:34 : What would be smart then? From Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:35 : ... I don't know Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:35 : It's living. And being happy. What could be smarter than that? If you find the person you would spend the rest of your life in bliss with why let some Stupid distance and obligations falter your dream? From Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:37 : Good point but what if something happens between us and we don't work out? Send To Mac at Dec 28, 2008 23:38 : Isn't that a risk worth taking?

26. Sillier. From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:36 : Well we both know we aren't going to be together tomorrow but i know We'll be together Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:37 : Good. No more "is this stupid" From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:43 : But is it? Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:43 : Sigh.... From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:44 : But isn't it stupid you not sending me more photos... I think it is Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:44 : Gah!!! Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:46 : Don't make me worry!! From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:47 : Lol think of it this way, We'll be poor but we can save money by staying at home making Sushi, watching anime, playing x-box and making love like rabbits. Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:48 : :-) Oh I guess I could live like that From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:49 : :-) good, i am going to go masterbate now. Be back in 5 Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 12:50 : Five? That's it huh? Are you serious? Take pictures

27. It’s just what I do.. Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:00 : You're not gonna give up on me right?! From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:06 : Sorry finishing my hair cut. I don't forsee myself giving up on you. From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:08 : God your getting insecure again... Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:09 : It's what I do! From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:12 : Are you going to give up on me? Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:12 : Of course not. From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:13 : Good then end of conversation Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:13 : Okay then. From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 13:14 : :-) Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 23:04 : Isn't it amazing that one day we will actually *be* together? From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 23:07 : Amazing sure, fate definately Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 23:07 : Do you think we are fated? From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 23:08 : I don't believe in fate but i think we would be a good argument for it From Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:10 : Did i mention i love you yet today? Send To Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:12 : No you didn't ;-) From Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:12 : Well in that case, i love you amanda hugh. Send To Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:13 : I love you. Like fifty billion loves. Or infinity loves even. From Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:14 : I love you infinity plus one Send To Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:15 : Lol!!!!!! Send To Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:15 : I love you for saying that! From Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:15 : Got to have the plus one Send To Mac at Dec 30, 2008 11:15 : For sures you do! Send To Mac at Jan 3, 2009 23:41 : Promise me we will be together From Mac at Jan 3, 2009 23:42 : I promise.

28. We weren’t listening to what we were saying…. From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:07 : I knew trust me, and the fact i could wake up night after night on the floor after a Shit air mattress and still be happy. That was the final moment. Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:52 : Your worth the trouble, kiddo From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:52 : I know i am thanks Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:52 : LOL!!! Arrogant From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:53 : Have you slept with me? That alone is worth the work Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:53 : Hehe. Well.... From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:54 : Exactly i am amazing. Remember the long session. Think about that times by 2 for the next 86 Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:55 : Haha you want me to think of sex with you for the next 86 days? From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:56 : Yes hard core, porno graphic, meaningful sex. Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:57 : I like how you added meaningful :-) Can't get fucking me off your mind huh :-P From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:58 : Well honestly i miss your lips the most. And cuddling, and Sushi Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:58 : We have steller kisses From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:59 : We have stellar everything Send To Mac at Dec 29, 2008 14:59 : I know. Isn't it incredible? From Mac at Dec 29, 2008 15:01 : I thought we just decided it was stellar

29. WE just weren’t listening… From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:38 : I love you Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:39 : I love you :-) So much. From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:39 : Good cause you have me. Now be careful i am fragile Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:40 : I wouldn't ever want to not have you. From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:41 : You say that now. You wait. It will come. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:41 : It won't. I know that. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:42 : It's more likely to work in the reverse situation From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:42 : Sure sure Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:43 : I would spend my entire life proving to you how much I love you From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:43 : I'll do the same. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:44 : Because you're perfect :-) And your insane Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:53 : I know I'm insane. But why do you think so? From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:54 : Cause you think i am perfect Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 15:54 : You are. You're perfect for me. From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:05 : Wish i was that teddy bear Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:05 : I would trade him for you in a heartbeat Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:05 : You'd be small spoon though From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:07 : I never want to lose you. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:07 : I'm yours for eternity Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:07 : And I was thinking the same thing From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:08 : I'll know how much you mean to me when your gone. I won't be able tn bare it so let me die first. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:08 : I don't know how I'd live without you From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:09 : You'll find out. I don't want too. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:10 : I wouldn't want to. I want my every breath to be yours. Every beat of my heart for you. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 21:12 : Infinity plus one

30. A lover of life.. From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 22:09 : I fell hard for you. Much quicker then i was ready for. But i would do it all over again. If it means being with you in the end. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 22:10 : I fell just as hard if not harder. From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 22:11 : Thats cause your heart is seven times too big. Send To Mac at Jan 4, 2009 22:11 : Is it? How so? From Mac at Jan 4, 2009 22:12 : Cause your a romantic, like i used to be and like i have begun to be with you. A lover of life and of his love Send To Mac at Jan 15, 2009 11:19 : I just fear it won't happen for some reason or another. Something always gets in the way and I try so hard. From Mac at Jan 15, 2009 11:20 : Something getting between us? Only if you let something in. I am dedicated to you babe. Send To Mac at Jan 15, 2009 11:20 : I wouldn't! I'm dedicated to the core. I just worry.

31. I tried… Send To Mac at Jan 28, 2009 11:15 : I love sushi! And also, I love you. Have a great day. Ebi sunomono...... <3 Send To Mac at Jan 28, 2009 12:00 : Tomorrow night or Friday night webcam movie time? From Mac at Jan 28, 2009 12:02 : Possibly, i work both nights. So it might be late if we do Send To Mac at Jan 28, 2009 12:02 : I work till nine both nights. But might be fun and light hearted. From Mac at Jan 28, 2009 12:05 : Ok Send To Mac at Jan 28, 2009 12:08 : Whomp. Send To Mac at Jan 28, 2009 18:05 : Champagne balls to your walls, have a mantacular night. May it prove to be a night of triumph for you and your oozing chromosomes of depravity and peterversity. Spank that wayward dolphin once for me. Smile and remember 3d glasses, anime toques and singing amy winehouse. Cheers tekka mac .

32. He thought I broke up with him… (Refer to previous slides. Would that girl break up with this guy?) And then they both hurt. And he moved on. And I cried. And he cut me out….

33. And I broke inside.

34. Mon amour perdu (my lost love)

35. And here I am now… Still hurt. Still angry. But still in love…. With nothing left to offer but the truth… and her everything.

36. And he is probably…

37. But I am still… (or something like it) … you know where to reach me. (I said kicking and screaming…) (eternal love) In love with you…. For everything we were. The Fact you love me. The fact you felt it. The commitment you gave. For the Fact it didn’t happen. I didn’t give Up. I didn’t betray you. I didn’t Lie, cheat. For two people scared Of the love they possess for Each other. Too scared to embrace it. Too scared to lose it. In light of all Our mistakes. Forgiveness. Because you know the truth. Because you felt the love. Because you know. The fight is yours now. You know Where I stand. Always loving you. Only you. Still single. Still alone. Believing in my one love. My Dream boy. My soldier. My angel. My broken hearted lover. One broken Girl trying to reach a broken boy. Two broken souls designed for The other but too hurt to trust. But I believe. Open your eyes. I’m still here.

38. Last words… I’m really hurt. Really really angry. Insulted. I’m a lot of negative things towards you right now. I want to hate you. But I also stupidly love you. I know you better than to believe the bad things I’m thinking. That’s all I got. I didn’t break up with you and I love you. You’re scared of the pain, pain I could never cause you. I could never leave you, cheat on you, or abandon you. Everything I promised you is true. Your pain because of me is self created. Stop giving up on things you believe in. Stop living in fear and these problems won’t happen. You believed just as much as I did. Stop making excuses and trust me. I'm being punished for a mistake I did not make. You love me and you know we are perfect for each other. I love you and I believe in us. I guess I’m the only one left on the planet that believes in us, but my love can build cities. My love for you is endless. It began with a whomp tree. I’m perfect for you. I complement your interests, your passion, your intellect and I challenge you. I challenge your trust issues, commitment issues, and your temper. Plus I inspire you. You tell me what more you want from another human being? You had my undying commitment and love; I never took it away. I believe with every fiber of me that you love me, you want to be with me, and you are just scared of the pain. I believe we are meant to be. I know you. I know you meant what you said. You know where I stand now. You decide if you can handle a life without me in it. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life thinking “what if”? I don’t just spout off romantic notions without believing them. Forever is a reality. So being mad at you, hurt by you, not being able to eat because of you... this unliveable pain I've gone through doesn't change the fact that I love you. I'm stupid for it, I guess. But you had to know. I love you and this sucks. It's a mistake not to be together. There, I said it. Elephant in the room? It's out. But I'll move on if I have to. If you want me to.